pop rock or rock pop?

in light of the discussion on pea's blog/tagboard, singapore idol and rockstar supernova, i wish to discuss the issue of music. specifically singer talent search shows and the kind of music they sing.

firstly, lets make it VERY VERY VERY clear. IDOL IS POP. period. which is why chris was never gonna win. which explains why kelly, ruben, fantasia and carrie won ai. they are pop through and through. whilst there are the odd weirdos aka chris, abotu everything about ai and any other i is pop. jus look at the song selections/themes. u haf a barry manilow week. u haf an elvis wk. u haf a jazz wk. u haf a billbaords wk. they are clear indications of how poppish idol is. not that it is a bad thing per se. but when they start mixing it all up, dats when it starts to suck big time.

-cue singapore idol music thingy-

deng deng deng! singapore idol!!!!! by far one of the biggest jokes in television history for as long as i can rmb. honestly, i think the producers, contestants, judges and viewers alike are getting it very wrong. they are all messed up in the head. cant they understand the show is to find the nest POP idol?? wad the hell the original was called POP IDOL!!! den wad do we get? beng wannabes who cant speak properly, pple with perpetual bad hair days who tink avril is "rocker!!!" and who tink flickin their hair once every 5 secs is cool. wad. the. fuck. i mean helloooooooo jsu take last season for example. taufik won. (yay hehe =D). my point is that he won because of his pop appeal. like duh syl-rockeryeayeabeng-vester never would have been allowed to win. i'd bet they would doctor the votes jus to make sure he doesnt win. because of one reason and one reason only. HE CANNOT SELL. in singapore, there is one very simple rule of music. rock does not sell. only pop does. which is why u haf genie (-.-""""""), now wad kaira gong, even the whole stef sun tanya chia thing. they are all pop. ok so wads so appalling about singapore idol is that some of them contestants tink they can win by being "cool" and "rocker". ala rahimah paul sly. firstly, they prob tink greenday is rock. WHICH BY THE WAY THE FUCKING ARE NOT. secondly, their attempts to dress rocker fail terribly. (jus like someone else heh :P) i mean, the glove stuff and net shirts and wad not? they scream wannabe mroe than they scream rock.

ok i don claim to know wad rock is all about and stuff, but i believe i have seen enuff true rock to tell the rockers from the wannabe rockers.

so aniwae it is very sad how they try so had. u haf sly singing "i don wanna miss a thang!! jea jea jea" (zao siaing somewhere of course), den u haf paul twohill singing wad my sac. scrwe him. oh yea yea my favouratest example of all. rahimah going: "i'm rocker!!!"......"and tonight i shall be singing avril lavigne." honestly, when i heard dat i jus died. like my brain exploded adn my guts all burst, so blood came quirting out of the tips of my fingers and toes and my small intestines started coming out of my ears. point is, i died. avril is to pop as sven goren eriksson is to winning. THEY ARE MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE!! grrr.

as the whole world should know, the one place to find true rock, AND good singing on tv, is rockstar supernova. seriously if u wan to noe smthn of wad a rocker's life is like, watch that show. at least those pple understand wad rock truly is. AND they can sing ALOT better den those toots on anything i. and the best part of all? u actually get good music. u don get no barry manilow theme -.- u get losing my religion and creep. now THATS music at its best. somewhat.

and considerin all these shows aim to find the best singer amongst them all, i tink its quite sad and telling when any of the rockers on rockstar, vocally, could prob make the idol top 3. americas. singapore's they'd be too good to join. again i stress vocally. cos they couldnt cut it as pop. look at the rock bands that tried going pop. gnr, creed, all fucked themverygoodselves up upside down. and hey if ure lookin for rags to riched stories ala carrie underwood, rockstar is THE place to go. u got pple who leave home at 16 and live on teh streets ever since ala lukas, u haf pple born in africa hus parents travel to the land of hope for hope, ala dilana. u get the likes.

so, DOWN WITH IDOL. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> OUT.

char siew rice man

disclaimer: this has notin wadsoever to do with the stupid bar chor mee man. grr i am taking to disliking mr brown.

in the wake of the recent hoohah otherwise known as national day, i have taken to thinking about....our country!!! like wow. but i have formulated some questions to ask, mainly about ourselves.

firstly, have u ever wondered wad exactly is the point of the national day parade? i mean, its the nation's bdae, and i suppose we all throw parties, in this case a party for 60,000 and all those watching at home. but what exactly is the point of a parade? i would tink in the past, like jus after independence, the parade was probably used as a means to provide the citizens with something to be proud of. like you know our very wonderful army and navy and pap and scouts, and the l33t weapons and stuff we haf. its like how north korea like sends out all their tanks. the same idea. ure giving pple confidence i guess. also, it was a time to reflect about our past, smthn i believe reiterated in every yr's parade. 40 yrs ago, this was a brilliant idea. now? not so.

why go i say this? the first reason i offer is the fact that singapore has developed into a global nation (sad reference as this is). its true. we have become global, so much so many pple are losing their national identity. 40 yrs ago, singapore was jus born. everyone felt part of this great undertaking. seriously, i'd bet any person above 60 here in singapore is probably wayyy more patriotic den the normal 15 yr old. so, we must then question the relevence of the national parade then. is there any more need for this reinforcement of our national identity with the use of a parade? i hardly think so. instead, i tink there might be a reverse effect, in the sense that people start seeing the whole fiasco and somewhat contrived, and hence pointless . secondly, the nature of the parade has indeed evolved. whilst it was a simple military march pass some performance thing yrs ago, it has become a full fledged spectacle nowadays. when i watch the parade, such as this year's, i couldnt help but notice how much it seemed like a pop concert, complete with a singer, music, dancers, a choir, even drummers. it has become a show, literally. even the fighter jet stuff and especially the fireworks, i somehow feel that it is slowly losing the essence of what the parade should be about.

during this period of time, i have also realised something else. almost every coffee shop, and hence everywhere, one goes, one is bound to find a char siew rice stall. even if it is usually coupled with chicker rice. have u ever wondered where the term "char siew rice" evolved from? whilst yes in chi it is shao rou fan, in english it is technically speaking rice with roasted pork, or in broken english roasted pork rice. so where does "char siew rice" fit in, if its neither english nor chinese? my guess (no i have not bothered to do any research), is that it is a literal translation from some dialect. ok so my hokkien/cantonese is pretty much shitty, but dat doesnt really matter. what matters is this: we singaporeans have made it such that "char siew rice" is now a more appropriate term to call the dish than roasted pork rice. what does this represent? i belief this can be linked back to the issue of national identity. as much as the government is trying to create/enforce a national identity, it is eveidently not working. changing the national day song serves no purpose other than to advertise for some new singer. what i tink the government doesnt realise is that our true national identity lies in the smaller things in life. the char siew rice, the kua chap, the milo peng, the wa laus and the lahs. i believe the government should not try to stamp out these "indications" of a uncivilised or backward country, because it does afterall represent who we are. why is mr brown so popular? it is because he does wad the government doesnt. he brings it down to the pple. they can relate to him unlike the government. is the government is serious about building a nation with a strong national identity, i believe they would fare better not trying to act like a foreign country.

one people, one nation, one singapura, lah.

happy happy poo pi pi

haha i figured putting random song titles as post titles was/is rather pointless, so now i shall revert to titles that actually mean smthn, as is actually releveant to the post. ok at least some part of the title is.

so, TODAY IS A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: X 10000000000000000

haha. why? cos i pass chineseeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahahaha. hey it came as a shock to me probably as much as lao shi herself. haha. aniwae, proded me got......50.5!!!!! muhahahahhaa. i gloat at my past shitty chi marks. hahaha. yes yes i am very happy. hey i mean if u jus passed and ure teacher tells u well done on improving, its smthn rite! haha.

ok on a not so happy not i got 33.5 for lang arts. its shit marks really. i noe i can do better.

ok ok so i now haf a great masterplan to study for eoys!! haha. i am inspired. inspiration is a really powerful thing. haha. so aniwae i'm like gonna spend every sat from now till the exams studying. ok so alot of pple prob won believe me, but trust me it shall be done. ok lets set myself some goals for eoys:

lang arts: >60% i tink its quite possible. i wan above 65%, so i'm gonna study very hard!!
chi: d7. dats all i need and all i want.
maths: hmm very difficult. i wan to score >55, but i'm not too sure i can. a pass will be ok already, but i'm still gonna work hard to score higher. i tink ima gonna get emergency tuition frmo my cuz.
physics: hm >60% bah. last yr can, and my physics isnt terribly terrible like my other sciences, so shld be can.
chem: hm. >45%? i tink its a realistic goal, considerin i prob aint up to even that standard yet.
bio: >45%. i tink this is managable, but considerin its 2 yrs work? i dunno.
ss: haha this one quite tough. ima aimin >65% - 70%. considerin i got 79 last yr, i tink i can manage a decent score. and i mean this yr ss not say alot of content lah. haha last yr it saved my sa and i tink it prob will again.
lit: gah. >55% would be good liao. maybe 60. i jus wan a decent score thats all.

yep. lets all have a minute of silence. 1....2.....3.....4............

dakota

dessy's rule of life #1: live for no one but yourself

yep. dat is how i live my life. blame me for being selfish, but thats wad i believe in. i don haf many ideals. but those i have, i live by them. if perhaps more than anything else. which may explain why i'm so screwed up then. cos some of those ideals are very warped, yet i still live by them. its how i've become. 2 yrs is a long time to change. 2 yrs is a long time to not change. in that time i have rediscovered parts of myself, i have uncovered parts of myself, but most of all i have done away with parts of myself.

dessy's rule of life #2: never explain more than you need to.

theres's no "i" in team

wee.

dessy's grand masterplan to maximise his pathetic $80 a month:

transport($40): $0.90 per day (to and from sch) x 20 sch days = $18.00
other expenses: $?.??

everything else($80)
food:
mon: eat own food due to lousy break timings = $0.00
tues: eat chi food during first break ($2.20) + own food during 2nd break + own food during bio = $2.20 (reminder bring something to keep myself awake during lang arts)
wed: eat chicken rice ($1.90) + own food during only break = $1.90
thur: 1st break eat 2 bananas ($1) + drink many many water + eat chi food 2nd break ($2.20) = $3.20)
fri: eat chi food ($2.20) + 1 banana ($0.50) during only break = $2.70)
sat and sun: eat food out of the fridge.

everything x 4 = $40.0 me: 0_0

so technically i can actually save (80-40) + (40-about20) = $60.0 (!!!!!!!)

now since i can actually now save about 20 from the transport, the question is, WHERE IS THE OTHER FRIGGIN 40 BUCKS GOING???

ok now to answer my own question. lets analyse this month alone.

august expenses, not including school
homesick: take neos + macs + lousy food court hokkien mee - $13.50 thereabouts
11/8: movie arcade neos - 8 + 7 + 10 = 25
13/8: neos - 8 - 5 = $3
so after less than half a month i haf spent $41.50 outside of school. which helps explain why i haf like $20 left for the month.

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

ok so my masterplan shall allow me to save $60 a month of i don go out and shit. i shall do it.

away from the sun

i sense it happenin. again.

today is a landmark in my life. for the first time in my life, i went somewhere to do work!!! actual school work! this is amazing. yay.

yesterday/today was rather interestin too. haha. how time flies i suppose. they say curiousity kills/ed the cat. i say curiously changed/saved my life.

we're all sure.

this love

oh fuck i jus realised i havent done hte stupid tnc shit. AHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i need divine intervention. really.

in the end

gah for some queer reason i am suddenly very hyped to actually do all my (overdue plus ucrrent) work, excludin chi. this is wad i haf left:

lang arts:
sip proposal and actual project. jay will sit on me when i actually hand in my proposal

maths:
diff 3 diff 5 integration 4 assignments. i tink.

physics:
3 ws. CURRENT.

chem:
the experiment thingy.

bio:
some ws. CURRENT.

ss:
uh, ss? heh.

lit:
macbeth essay.
macbeth assignment (>.> its headin towards being a whole friggin term late. i tink this is a new record lah)

chi:
uh, everything since march 2005 - about 10 pieces of work

rm:
DIE. DIE. DIE.

elecitve:
assignment. sian diao.

and to top it all off:
SUTDYING FOR THE FRIGGIN EXAMS TWO YEARS WORTH OF WORK.
u noe wad that entails? thats 2 yrs worth of bio and 2 yrs worth of chem. and for gd emasure 2 yrs worth of lang arts too. serious i tink they are tryin to kil us.

am i dead or am i dead or am i dead.

god made man perfect. then he gave them the ability to think. genius.

cry for eternity

i realise i'm bloggin at such a strange rate its weird. ok dat statement didnt really make much sense. my point is that the way i am blogging, often as it is, its losing much relevance as a blog per se. its more like a stress reliever cum boredom reliever cum some other shit. because thats what it has become to me. a tool to fill up those little gaps in my life. got 10 mins to burn? blog. got a day to burn? blog even more.

this is rather stupid and depressing. not that i care really.

if you could only see

i'm waiting for that one day,
where everything is told.
where every truth is said.
where there no longer are any secrets.
why we can all recollect and reflect,
and for everyone to hear,
tell the world everything you ever wanted.
everything u ever felt.
the hatred, longing, disgust,
all those emotions u haf ever tasted.
all the revelations,
whether they hurt or not,
it don matter no more.
for after that,
its all over.
theres nothing to care about anymore.
so why not jus go ahead and tell everyone?

yes i'm waiting for this day.
anticipating, yet dreading.
hoping it will arrive.

polyamorous

haha for some strange reason the smell of my finger tips after playing acoustic guit for awhile reminds me of tamiya. somehow. haha. but i like the smell nonetheless.

ok i shall rant about some guitar shit now.

firstly, songs i cant stand playing cos of the effed up tuning.
1. iris. GRRRR. i snapped the g-string once when i was retuning it up. yes the open b is damn nice, but its damn screwed lah gah.
2. diary of jane. the friggin thing is 4 semitones down. FOUR. i really cant be bothered. its gonna be like loose as hell. den when i use the comp and up the thing four semitones, the vocals sound like crazy frog. WTF.
3. open ure eyes. the tuning is jus 0_0. dadadd. >< i tink the only feasible way to play this song is to actually use two high e strings and tune down. tuning a b string to d is wayyy mad.

secondly, songs that dont look that difficult but are actually terribly hard to play
1. hotel california. it isnt THATTTTT hard, in that the notes are relatively near. but the transitions are frig hard.
2. down to my last. go see the tabs. gah.

thridly, songs that are frig hard but frig nice.
1. curses. bleh.
2. open your eyes. gah.
3. franz ferdinand songs. the lead part are jus 0_0
4. sweet child. its jus the damn solos. bleh. but hey i can play rhythm :D (not dat its hard. its onyl 3 chords i tink)

bah. now my guit is in drop d one semiton down. after playing history. wee.

nb. i haven touched a single piece of work yet. sheet.

anything anything

clap clap clap clap clap///

alright now, sing it!!!!

buda mee mee mee buda may may may

oh oh oh misu taroyo...

yea yea!

check it out

"How is the world ruled and how do wars start? Diplomats tell lies to journalists and then believe what they read." - Karl Kraus

"We all have mental problems, it's just that some of us choose to show them." -Nathanael Huddleson

"Some people suffer from insanity, others just enjoy it." -Unknown

"If a person asks you where you are going tell them 'follow me, and you'll know when we get there.'" -Unknown

"To you I'm an atheist; to God, I'm the Loyal Opposition." - Woody Allen

"The internet is a great way to get on the net." - Bob Dole, Republican presidential candidate

"Don't knock masturbation, it's sex with someone you love.

Evening news is where they begin with 'Good evening', and then proceed to tell you why it isn't.

"For me there are only two type of women: goddesses and doormats." - Pablo Picasso

"If A equals success, then the formula is: A = X + Y + Z, X is work. Y is play. Z is keep your mouth shut." - Albert Einstein

Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die.

"I am free of all prejudices. I hate everyone equally." - W.C. Fields

"The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits" - Albert Einstein

"Wise men talk because they have something to say. Fools talk because they have to say something." - Plato

seriously, pretentiousness aint my thang.

wee okay i shall spend the rest of today and tom, hopefully, chionging as much work as i possibly can. damn.

i alone

i am SOOO gonna get a tatoo when i grow up.
serious.
why?
cos i love myself.
YES.

everybody hurts

WAAHHHHHHH.

seriously, i haf to quit youtubing so much. gah. watch these shits man. (nb. some of them prob only u bball peeps will get heh)

BIG ben hittin 3s (!!!!!):
1. http://youtube.com/watch?v=9FI001EXKLg&mode=related&search= (and its a fickin 27 footer too!!!!!)
2. i cant get a link but theres a vid where he SWISHES a 3. form the goddam corner. gah

pure insanity and things u never thot they could do (esp ak-47 0_0):
http://youtube.com/watch?v=nRHvb7fcgCs&mode=related&search=

plain weird:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Z4d-hZedHt8&mode=related&search=

its so sick its kinda freaky:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=b6UFqtRFf9s

mad buzzer beaters:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=mBngrQ5Mt7U&mode=related&search=
http://youtube.com/watch?v=zWUEnbPsVfo

more mad dishes (gah kidd and carter are wayyyyy too imba):
http://youtube.com/watch?v=6JmyOX7DjR4&mode=related&search=

madass blockin:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=46gFLJNPh70&mode=related&search=
http://youtube.com/watch?v=VxauCKNYqao&mode=related&search= (the most insanest block EVA!!! ok maybe not. but its very close)

gah i'm too lazy. point is all the above is da sick shit. oh and josh smith is an insane blocker. gah. and i tink alot of pple do not realise how well wade can actually block. i cant get the stsoudamire buzzer beater one out of my head argh.

u jus wan to die if ure a spurs fan:
haha i don haf the link but jus go rewatch the highlights from the 02 playoffs EH? hahahaha.

sugarcoat

seriously, i'm not sure why i even bother.
its like, its all so surreal.
almost like its happening again.
and again i find myself asking the same old damn question:
is it worth it?

haha thank you.
for a great memory.
for a great day.
for a great chance.

really, is it that hard to imagine?
does it really ask that much out of you?
all i'm asking is a little bit of understanding.
for once a little selflessness on your part.
but i dunno.
maybe it jus aint "like you" to be like that.
pity then.

i'm really sorry.
i don tink u understood me right,
but i apologise nonetheless.
i hope tho that u'd allow me to explain myself.
i'd even go so far as to say i deserve it.

hey mate. chill.
it aint all that bad.
hell ure life's a whole lot better den me,
believe it or not.
so don stress man.

it was fun.
it really was.
haha.
and we have some memories to keep too! :)

is it, is it not?
somehow i feel theres still this strange barrier.
its you, its me, its prob both of us.
i guess some things cant jus be forgotten jus like that huh.

yes i am selfish.
as hell.
but at least i'm willing to admit it.
at least i know where my flaws lie.
whether i change or not is another issue.
though some might argue, with reason,
maybe not choosing is worse den not knowing.
ignorance being better den ignoring.

i've come to realise this about myself.
beneath everything else,
i wan the chance to be nice.
to be with people i know i cannot dislike,
people i can see flaws,
but they jus slip away.
its like holding a rock versus holdin water.
some things, they are there, yet they arent.
i guess thats where the beauty really lies init?

haha i tink we still haf quite alot to talk about eh?
unfinishhed business, so called.
tho i guess u could say it will never be done ><

i really don take u shld keep blaming ureself for what has happened.
afterall, many a times its the fault of both parties.
giving without taking, taking without giving,
its both they same.
it doesnt make one more guilty than the other u noe...
i've prob said sorry a million times.
haha and i guess now i know why it took so long.
although i must admit its quite amazing how things have turned out,
considerin all thats happen.
much love yah.

loving the alien

have a nice day

yay today was a good day. first i finally watched pirates. secondly i went played ddr, and i even managed a ss game!!! muhahahaha. i rock. heh. 92 combo seh bo... haha den thirdly i took neos ^^

kk i'm a happy piss of sheet. yay me.

somtimes i wonder,
have u been deceiving me all along.
no maybe we've both been deceiving each other all along.
u know, maybe its true.
some things never change.

until the day i die

yay testerday was good day. well actually it wasnt, considerin i had to sit and watch the whole damn parade in tv. stupid really. but dats not hte point. the point is, I MADE 8 3S PLAYING BALL YSTD!1!1!1!1!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!

hahah yes i am very happy. hell it only took my 40 mins. i even made 1 in a game ^^

weee i rock.

words for the lost soul

do you believe in true love?
do you believe in things lasting forever?
love, frenships, rivalries?
do you believe in god?

do you believe everything happens for a reason?
do you treasure what you have?
do you ever regret letting go of something?
do you ever wonder what might have been if u didnt give up that one time?

is there one person u treasure more than anyone else?
can this one person actually exist?
is there meaning in everything around us?
is there a need for us to understand everything that happens?
is ignorance necesserily a bad thing?
afterall, ignorance is bliss no?

do u ever doubt ure existance?
do u ever ask ureself,
maybe theres so much more you've yet to do?
have u ever proceeded even in doubt?
do you want to die?
or do u want to live forever?

wads ure goal in life?
would u ever be satisfied just making more and mroe money?
is riches the answer?
would u chase ure dreams and give up everything u have?
is anything worth it to give up ure life for?
wads wrong with dreaming?

have u ever felt useless?
have u ever felt used?
have u ever felt useful?

do u believe in perfection?
have u ever considered inperfection to be a good thing?
wad is overimperfection?
is there such a thing as perfect imperfection?
or imperfect perfection?

have u ever had more questions than answers?
have u ever felt there was no meaning in what u were doin?
have u ever found comfort in doing smthn meaningless?

have u ever asked youself why u choose when there are choices?

if u answer yes to all of the questions, you are positivevly crazy.
if u answer no to all the questions, you are negatively crazy.
if u haf both yes and no answers, u need to go listen to breaking benjamin.

and no this isnt just some cheapskate plug for breaking benjamin. theres actually some meaning. maybe.

teh n00b speaks n00bshhit

haiz i shall proceed den to dream further. previously i did my dream acoustic set. npw i shall do my dream rock set. and hell i shall break it all up and include explanations!! ^^

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dessy's dream rock set
intro - the sweet anthems:
1. sweet shild o mine - gnr (there really isnt any other way to start this set)
2. smells like teen spirit - nirvana (like duh)

ok change it up more melodic stuff
3. broken wings - alterbridge (change it up slightly)
4. if you could only see - tonic
5. everlong - foo fighters (great sing along song)

ok now to the depressing songs
6. demolition lovers - mcr (1 i <3 long songs 2 its a great song 3 its really depressing shit)
7. history - funeral for a friend
8. dont cry - gnr
9. diary of jane - breaking benjamin

now to the head bang stuff. considerin the previous 6 songs very little head-banging capacity.
10. miss murder - AFI (it jsu makes me want to get up and go crazy)
11. curses - bullet for my valentine (if u don yet noe how great this song is, do)
12. sweetness - jimmy eat world (its infectious)
13. anything anything - dramarama (i'll give u anything!!!!!!)
14. i alone - live
15. get it faster - jimmy eat world
16. heart shaped box - nirvana

ok den now some alt rock (the cool music :p)
17. somebody told me - the killers
18. take me out - franz ferdinand (i swear this is the ultimate dance track)
19. every you every me - placebo
20. dakota - streophonics
21. honest mistake - the bravery

hm ok back to abit more poppish rock which actually fit into a few categories
22. scars - papa roach (one of the best emo songs i know)
23. makedamnsure - taking back sunday
24. trees - the lovehammers/marty casey
25. come as you are - nirvana
26. blurry - puddle of mudd
27. if you could only see - tonic

outro - the classics
28. bohemian rhapsody - queen (yep yep rock anthem galore this song is tooo good)
29. work - jimmy eat world (because i love this song to bits)
30. november rain - gnr (i'd end the set with this cos its such a majestic song with sick solos and most importantly a great ending...)

end.

encore:
wadeva the hell i feel like doin :D hm i'd like to play that thing u do tho. cos it'll be fun. haha. oh and perfect situation too.

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yes so u haf it my ultimate rock set. its my life long ambition to get this, or part of it, done one day. anyone willing to assist me in any way possible, i'll love u. if i don already do that is. haha. dream dream.

happy f'in birthday singapore. eat shid.

today u further stand by my claim that dota is stupid and for losers. ok maybe not reaaalllly for losers, but it is stuipd alright. firstly, there is no story. the game is jus so duh. den theres no continuity value. its like u lvl up den etc etc once hte game end u start all over again. wheres hte fun in that?? thridly, when u die u jus respawn. thats...cheap. i much prefer diablo, old as the game is. hell even the original warcraft is better. in diablo there is a story, and leveling up actually carries on the next time u play.

gah dota is dumb. i don get wads so bleedin attractive/addictive/enticing about it.

ok rant over. back to serious stuff.

which is notin much really heh.

what does one do when boredom sets in?

gah i am soooooooo bored.... i tink i am soon gonna die of boredom.

ok come on i shall make a list of things to do when i'm bored:
1. listen to music. ah duh. my music is always on...
2. blog. wooheee.
3. spam random people. heh.
4. uh, play my guit? but i'm even too bored to do dat. pig me. (ahhaha pun on big me aiyo ok not funny ><)
5. hm. find music scores. but theres been notin new lately.
6. dload stuff. but my ares is so shit now i dunno wtf is up but point is i cant dload shit.
7. surf random websites. i might and prob will resort to this soon.
8. oh yes blog surf. been there done that. if pple blog as often as i do maybe blog surfin might actually be interesting.
9. bang my head against the wall? it might come to that ><
10. hmmm. oh yes dream. dream about everything i aspire to be. heh.
11. read i guess. or rather re-read. its like i haf prob read most books i haf at least 3-4 times ><
12. write. but my tendencies to write has sharply declined.
13. sleep. but i'm too lazy to. ugh.
14. i dunno. i really dont.

i'm REALLY need a life quite badly >.>

of queer nights and queerer lights

last nite was quite weird. yes it was. a night where someone ask u how he/she shld feel after a break up, someone bringing up a rather painful past, where apologies were made, were you're tokin about bras and g-strings at 1am, when you/re reminiscing about the past, when you talk for the first time in ages, when it all happens, yes it equates to a very strange nite.

its so funny eh?

maybe, maybe its all meant to be like this.

its a pity that those times, they are all gone.

and yet maybe its a blessing.

yea history has this strange tendency to want to repeat itself.

and you know, maybe it will work out after all.

just like the way we miss each other.

to understand, you must first learn how to learn how to read

and here i am, almost 2 years on and a different person.
lifes been a whole lot of up to downs.
they say heaven aint close in a place like this,
and yet i have come to realise,
the distinctions between heaven hell and our mortal realm,
there really isnt much to it...
can one, in such a short time,
tranverse heaven hell and everything in between,
all while being the same man he used to be?
its so funny, when we all began as strangers.
made to lie together, to know the pain of each other,
to realise that at the end of everything,
we're all but strangers.
once a stranger, always a stranger.
i dont regret, but i do wish some things were different.
things said when they shouldnt,
actions that werent forthcoming when they should,
its all in there isnt it?
really its the worst way to enjoy life,
knowing theres another life out there for you.
knowing that everything u haf,
everything u ever wanted,
it was and will never be enough.
what does one do when you're stuck?
right in between here and there.
you know, there are somethings that should be said,
and then there are things that should forever be hidden.
how does one distinguish them then?
essentially that is what a dilemna is right.
a choice of neither over either.
she said you are there,
i said i am everywhere.
he said she's stuck on you,
it must have been a pity it never really happened.
cos she knew, he knew, i knew, we all knew,
its really didnt look right.
there really was nothing in it for anyone.
i must say i still miss those moments of quiet,
those times where the world seemed still,
almost like we were stuck in a vacuum of sorts.
haha.
but vacuums dont exist,
and hence it never will.
its quite queer the degeneration of sorts,
everything that have contributed too this great big hole.
black hole.
even if there was more for us in this life,
we will always look back and tell ourselves,
it could have been a whole lot of this and that.
also the times of sheer madness and joy,
they are all gone now.
now it feels so messed up,
so alone.
its not that i cannot live at all,
but sometimes i stumble when i crawl.
the obscenities of life they all come back to haunt all of us.
i must be happy for u all,
for finding greater things in life,
for discovering new direction.
but stay awhile and pity me would you,
me stuck in my past,
slowly letting myself down, into the deep yellow sea.
we werent right, we werent wrong,
we were something else altogether.
i admit girl, many a times i was wrong.
yet u stood by me for so long,
and for that i am eternally grateful.
yet it went wrong,
though maybe it is like this.
everything must go wrong before we can all move on.
it hurt, knowing i didnt do as i shld,
knowing that ever since,
it never really has been the same again.
so where do we go now?
honestly, i'm not terribly sure.
you know i've come to understand one thing.
the thing about friends, they hardly ever last.
at least friends that you see on a daily basis.
jus tink about it. you are spendin essentially about a quarter of a day
looking at these pple, living with these pple.
you noe, i tink thats why msn is so bleedin great.
it lets you talk to your frens in a very sterile environment,
one that lets you say things you normally dont.
and of course, not counting video conferencing,
you dont see their faces.
over time i tink pple generally tend to get sick of things they see,
like pple's faces. and thats when it all falls apart.
do you know what happens when an albino eats a mosquito?
i dunno either. if you do pls come tell me.
its almost like how its really impractical to get a ferrari and a lamborghini together.
so i guess i'll jus live with it.

yes it makes me weep,
but dont you cry tonight,
cos theres always a tomorrow.

its in my dreams for you and me

every half decent guitarist shld go listen to dragonforce. they are so technically l33t its friggin scary. i mean their songs are not bad, very long (i like) and the guitar work is MADDDDD!!!!!!!

oh and btw anyone who doesnt watch rockstar doesnt deserve to cal himherself a rocker.

oh and rocker poseurs SUCK SO BAD. j00s is teh pathetic n00bs...

come as you are, as you... wad??

haiz watching rockstar is depressing. why? cos it lets u dream about becoming a rocker you'll never be >< but hey everyone can dream a little dream rite? :D

so i shall dream. i dream of playing (with some people i tink) a acoustic set some time in my life. so,

dessy's dream acoustic set
1. come as you are - nirvana
2. wonderwall - oasis
3. with arms wide open - creed
4. everlong - foo fighters
5. the middle - jimmy eat world
6. dont cry - gnr
7. heart shaped box - nirvana
8. creep - radiohead
9. losing my religion (piano) - rem (although i prob mean the ryan star version :P)
10. iris - goo goo dolls
11. tear in heaven - eric clapton
12. hotel california - eagles (hey we can all dream eh :P)
13. my immortal (piano) - evanescence
14. storm - lifehouse
15. if you could only see - tonic
16. diary of jane (piano) - breaking benjamin

yep. if i ever somehow get to play that set i'd die a VERY happy man.. :)

some bastard is some bastard

yes some bastard pissed me offed real bad today. REAL bad. there was this asshole we were playing ball with jus now. he was an aboslute fucker. i mean granted him ball was pretty gd, but he's damn haolian. den his face like kock also see liao wan to punch him. to top it all off, he said this one thing dat really made me want to punch him. he was like "eh don associate me with ip kids." after he said that i made it a point to defend him and basically jus whack him. sad lah he humji run away, or else i would have whacked him summore for sure. bastard. i tell u if i ever play with him again i make sure i will woop his balls... grrr. i hate lousy cocky fucking bastards like him. real assholes...i cant believe fucked up idiots like him are even allowed into vj. rawr. and honestly i'd also not want to be associated with fucked up dicks like him.

on another note, today was a terrible bballing day. its was absolute shit. i couldnt shoot, couldnt score from inside, didnt get a single block, hardly rebounded and only got like 2 steals. dats jus sad. the only plus is i made 3 3s, although they werent in game. gah. but soccer was quite ok. although i made quite a few mistakes, i'm still quite happy. cos i had one damn nice sliding tackle + wrestle the ball away with my legs, and also a pretty sweet solo effort :P haha. at least i scored one goal today (:

bah i'm disgusted.

><

aiya this is quite sad. so far i have seen 2 girls from my side of the block in my condo who are quite pretty. dunno how old, dunno names, know schools, one know unit, one know floor. gah this is quite sad. almost like the toot mrt girl of laster years. or was it early this yr? i dunno liao. ><

you're too good to be true.

as i burn another page

GAH. i cant wait for the damn eoys to be over. ok i shall make a to-do list of post eoy activities.

1. BUY AN ELEC. somehow somewhere someway i'll make sure this is done. i'll prob go beg my parents to buy for me first den i pay them back. gah i am desperate for an elec.

2. go jam with char at her crib. it'll be sooo fun heh :D

3. go play ddr!!!! rawr i am deprived.

4. find a job or two. yea obviously to fund all my activities i need money so i need to earn moeny so i need to work. i tink i need to make around 600 min for my hols spending. cos my guit will prob cost me 400 plus already. den i still wan to shop for clothes and dvds and all kinds of random shit. including food ><

5. play alot alot alot alot alot of guitar. i noe i will.

6. master diary of jane on the piano. somehow. although i have a feeling this won happen. i'm not a man of patience.

7. play soccer. yea i'm deprived on the one sport i love the most.

8. play bball. yep yep. prob meet up with vs pals, and hopefully also play with the usual gang.

9. go jammin with pple. gah i want. stupid daniel suppose to go in march until now haven go yet ><

10. go play lan. yea yea.

11. read. i wan to at least finish my book, and prob pick up a few novels here and there. i doubt i will finish the bible >< too sian.

12. play lots of diablo :P (yisong on?)

13. SHOP!!!!!! i havent shopped in the longest time.

14. meet up with frens. i need to really.

obviously for all the above to happen i need to do decently for my eoys and overalls. hence i shall keep this as inspiration and motivation in pushing myself to work relatively hard for my exams.

caught between rock and a soft place

gah. i am in dilemna. i cant decided which is better - the original or acoustic version of diary of jane. becos they are both SUPER songs. grrr. its like the original is like head banging kind of shit, whereas the acoustic i tink can listen until cry lah.

this is so sad.

YOU'RE A GOD

ryan star is godlike. RAWR. i am like so jealous. his rendition of losing my religion is WAYYYYY too good. gah. he can play guit, piano and sing. i am sooo jealous sigh.

ok now i officially support dilana ryan and toby.

zz today i so called played tennis for the first time in months or years or centuries or smthn. and i realise my tennis has degenrated from bad to absolutely shitty. yay. this is quite sad. and i tink next yr i'll go join hockey. heh ^^

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how interestin ><

today i learnt smthn new. NEVER SLEEP WITH URE LEGS RAISED MORE THAN 25 DEGREES OFF THE GROUND, EVEN IF ITS FOR JUS 5 MINS... i learnt my lesson the hard way. i tink its like all the blood never flow there, so when i woke up and proceeded to move, DAMN IT HURT. it hurt really really bad. and only after 10 mins of movement including a jog to the toilet did it actually go away. rawr.

another thing. today i had cramps. or smthn to dat effect. my stomach felt and weird and painful and all. gah this is very freaky.

like oh my effin god!!!

haha. the following is very interesting. i did it a long time ago. but i jus did it again and i exclaimed "holy shit" very loudly in my room. heh. try it.

Count every " F" in the following text:


FINISHED FILES ARE THE RE

SULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTI

FIC STUDY COMBINED WITH

THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS...


(SEE BELOW)




HOW MANY ?









WRONG, THERE ARE 6 -- no joke.
READ IT AGAIN !
Really, go Back and Try to find the 6 F's before you scroll down.


The reasoning behind is further down.








The brain cannot process "OF".

Incredible or what? Go back and look again!!

seriously i counted THRICE before i scrolled down. haiya i'm like dumb >< style="font-family:Arial Black;font-size:130%;color:navy;">

gah bish bish bish

haha i'm getting nostalgic. haha. remembering the days when i used to go to pple's blogs (ok CERTAIN pple's blogs) and totally jus laughin until i almost wan to cry. and its not cos its funny like joke hur hur funyn per se. rather its more laughin at the person kind of laughin. like u noe how u laugh at pathetic pple. or stupid pple. or sad-case pple. or wannabes. or combinations of the above/before. haha. call me elitist or prejudice or wadeva. heh i don care :D

ok get to my point. my point is that i realise that some pple are really quite sad. like more sad that i had ever thot. ahahaha. its quite funny.

I <3 Rock And Roll
eh yo yo yo i em so kewl,
i wanna rock you till i have my full.
ch-eck out me shirt it is da bomb,
it has da bling n all the punk.
don noe u but i'm raelly kewl,
i'm the master of my skewl.
i <3 to dsign, i don like kodes,
i need quite alot of brand new klothes.
i've got the hair i've got me specs,
i even got me bag to match!
cos i'm rock i'm stone i'm boulder,
i'm good, u know it too.
teh girls all luv me,
the guys all wanna be me.
i am da band i do dem all,
i don wanna say it. but i'm good.
and guess wad my fren?
i really luv my rockin band.

- dedicated to a certain someone.

and after all these i realise,
i luv to be me.

camillianoire --- woopoo muttons

i recall an episode of csi i saw some time back, where this small super geniur girl managed to convince the csi that she committed a crime she didnt actually commit. cos actually her bro did but she wanted to cover for him. eventually the police couldnt arrest anyone cos of conflicting accounts.
so wad am i trying to say? i am trying to say what the girl told the women at the end of the show. its smthn like this: genius is not about knowing the most or being able to convince someone of the truth. true genius is being able to tell a lie, and den convince everyone else that it is the truth. and u noe wad? i absolutely agree. cos i mean knowledge can be gained by mugging. being able to convince is a skill that can be learned. thats how salespeople all come about non? but to be able to convinvce pple a lie is the truth, now dats true genius. heh.

i want to be a genius.

ahaha and i rmb smthn navi said the other day while taking neos dat made me laugh out loud. he was like "wa lau i need to gooooo home and mug neoprints lah! got sooo many things..." hahahaha.

on another note my dad is being a total ass. insert the hole somewhere. but den, wads new?

-insert vulgarities here-

disclaimer: there is a high possibility you might be/feel insulted by this post. but read on nonetheless. you must understand i'm not trying to insult or offend anyone, but i'm just stating my stand. if you want to hate me for it, its entirely up to you. but i apologise first if i don (and probrably will) offend you.

grrr i hate miss swan.

ok lemme get this right. initaially i thot miss swan was like some random mad women goin about teh streets pissing pple off. and i'm like ok if dats wad she wans to do and its funny she's jsu crazy. and den i go to class on college day it turns out its friggin done in a studio!!!! my miss-swan-hate-o-meter like shot up ten-fold or smthn. seriously. miss swan is jsu SOOOO stupid and lame.

ok i want to reason out some stuff. there are a few kinds of humour in this world. theres the lame humour (eugene, miss swan), the dumb humour (miss swan, tom cruise jumpin on a couch, russell peters), the parody humour (scary movie, elements of whose line), the sarcastic humour (whose line, my wife and kids, seinfield and the likes, russell peters), and last but definitely not least intelligent humour (whose line, seinfield, a variety of other shows). of course some of the categories overlap, and i most defnitely would have missed out some shows/types because i don watch that much tv, but generally i believe humour can be classified broadly into the above groups.

ok so about miss swan. the whole farce falls in the lame, dumb categories. why? because essentialyl thats what it is. its humour dat insults ure intelligence. its the kind of humour that is funny the first time but painful everytime after that. theres no replay value in that. ok i shld go and add russell peters in too. hang. k done. i mean at least russell peters isnt that bad cos there are parts that are genuinely farny. but miss swan its jus so dumb. much like that stupid old hag in the LT ystd. its like:
police: wad did the robber look like?
miss swan: "oooh he looked like a man" (audience laughs)
police: i need details.
miss swan: "oooh details i haf... he look like a man!!" (audience laugh. i cringe)
ok i know there'll be pple saying i don appreciate this kind of humour but honestly, wads there to appreciate? i'm sorry if i'm putting pple down but this kind of humour is for not smart (i choose not to use dumb) pple. the worst parts of the whole miss swan thing is that 1. her voice is sooo f'in annoying i wan to stab her and 2. its all friggin done in a studio. with wad i suppose are scripted lines. i mean WAD??? ure f'in scriptin these kinds of lame humour!?! dats jus sad...

i wan to compare these kinds of humour to intelligeng/sarcastic humour, which is actually funny. essentially, the difference is that the latter categories are actually genuinely funny. and you can watch it time afetr time and still laugh. shows such as seinfield or whose line or my wife and kids and the likes. star world does show quite a few good comedies. oh friends too =D i <3 friends. the thing about these shows, they actually require you to understand a joke before laughin, as opposed to laughin to something quite meaningless. which is why i say russell peters at points is still funny in a smart way.

take friends as an example (and a VERY good one for that). it ran 10 seasons, and no one ever got tired of it. why? because it made pple laugh, but it did not insult their intelligence. there is a right balance of comic/stupid humour with sarcastic humour. and all the characters had abit of both. (i particularly like ross and chandler. hehe) it made the show fun, funny and painless to watch.

recently i haf rekindled my love for whose line is it anyway. again another show that has achieved cult-like status, as did friends. wad about the show is so good? for one you haf a hilarious host in drew carey. den some really talented cast in wayne, colin and ryan. and the fourth member is always someone gd, whether its whoppi goldberg of robim williams. and the best part of all is that everything is impromptu. i tink thats wad really makes the show stand out. the fact that these pple haf to make up everything on the spot. so whether its a jibe at someone or a parody or smthn random or a screw up it all makes for a very funny show. and what i especially like about the show is the fact that you REALLY must understand the joke before you can laugh. cos if u don understand u'll be like "HUH??" cos alot of the jokes there is a context to it which makes it really funny, such as parodies and the like. whilst admittedly its a american show and there are some jokes very american in nature and hence harder to understands (hell i sometimes don get the joke also >.<), but the majority of the jokes its quite understandable. seriously go watch it if you can.

oh yes another thing. i tink the fact there are pple in the vip watching miss swan is, for me, quite rather appalling, and also in some sense quite insulting. we're suppose to be the smartest 5% in singapore, yet there are pple watching a show i'd trust someone with an iq of 40 to watch. i'm sorry guys but its true. i somehow cannot understand why people with an average iq of maybe 90-110 (i tink?) could somehow find miss swan funny. cos she isnt. she's jus annoying and stupid and irritaing and moronic.

if you want REAL humour, go watch star world. most of the comedies there are actually good. and if you don get the jokes, i'm sorry. you're missing out. you've got miss swan =D

okie i'm off to watch another episode of whose line. ciao. oh yea and peace.

the days of seeing little steps running away towards there

hm today was rather interesting. college day was like blah cos i didnt really manage to read much, den the stooopid pe trs were absolute whores lah. i tell u with the exception of yong melvin tan i tink the whole friggin pe dept is shit. the stupid ms lim i tink thats her name wah she's a super bitch lah grrr i detest her. and the old apek oso another cock shit. he liked asked 10 pple the same friggin qn. dumb...

ok today for some strange reason i saw qutie a few chio girls. one on the train from paya lebar to city hall, with subra. den 2/3 on the 38 from tanah merah to my hse busstop. and this is not including the random chicks one sees walking along orchard road.

and grrr i am sad i didnt get to watch cats in the cradle. like when we first went past indochine they werent performin yet. den when we were done it was like 9.45 and i contemplated goin but decided i was too damn lazy so didnt. gah.

could you but love me?

saying sorry - we're falling forward

haiz this is quite sad.
haf you ever felt as if
you cant help but miss someone?
as if theres this little voice in your head,
that never wants to go away?
those times, they dont seem so far back.
yet they feel like an eternity ago.

its quite strange the way our lives
have evolved into wad they are now.
you, me, them, all of us.
do you still rmb the times we spent,
talking about the stragest things,
more than anyhting, laughing.
hehe. tellytubbies.

its like, all that is behind us now.
and i'm not sure we can get it back.
there were times when things were too much to bear.
times when we almost let go.
and den did we?
maybe, maybe not.
it knda hit a little snag.
if thats what it can be called.

u must rmb the time(s) it got too much.
the few instances it all seemed to want to fall apart.
both of us we werent even sure.
i rmb u once asked,
did i ever thot of letting go.
its quite queer how i did once tink about it
rite near the beginning,
but now you know i know i'd never haf
to need to consider it ever again.

the way some people have the ability to shape one's life,
i still have no clue how it ever did happen.
but happen it did,
and there wasnt and isnt any looking back.

i hope you'll forgive me for everything i ever did.

they say everything has its place and time.

in the worst way...

you dont even know///

History - Funeral for a Friend

Dear friends of this academy, ohh
Romeo is bleeding to death
To see a friend bleed to death what for
Some kind of metaphor that I can't see?
So, I'll drink until I see it
This sky will make me sick
So, I'll give up on you
I'll give up on this
This sky will make me sick
I'll give up on this
I'll give up on you

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

So you want to hold me up and bring me down
Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down
I don't care for your sweet scent
Or, the way you want me more than I want you
I don't care for your sweet scent
Or, the way you want me more than I want you

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

It's all mine
It's all mine
It's all mine

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

omg i love this song. its melodic and calming yet really depressing and painful at the same time. sighs.

| G F#/G Em | C D G |

yay today is a gd day ^^ haha. today i (finally) watched a movie, played ddr, played arcade, drank mos shake, and took neos!! haha. yay i am satisfied today. and oso ystd my stats for bball were really sweet. heehee =)))))

hate me today.... hate me tommorrow...

i tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it...

sometimes i wonder.
all these pain, all the hurting,
all the suffering,
is it really worth it?
these tears we cry, for what?

you know, at one point i thot i knew.
at one point it all did mean something to me.
but then, things change.
time keeps moving,
hoping only to leave us behind.

why is it we let our hearts out,
only for them to be hurt.
scarred with tears of madness,
sheets of blinding pain.

its not like me to want to hurt,
or be hurt.
at least thats what i tink.

you know, people always talk about being strong.
about overcoming your weaknesses.
but have you considered one thing?
how do we really qualify weakness?
and strength for that matter.
how can one be strong if he never knew weakness?
yet how can one be weak if he never kenw strength?
this little paradox bugs me no end.
what if your caught in the middle of this endless struggle?
for some people, mayeb that is paradise.
to be neither strong or weak.
to neither succeed nor fail.
to jus...be.

my weakness is that i care too much.

eh why people keep cheating my feelings...

dessie wessie says:
hey des
aaron is a stupid fool hu has yet to come to terms with my ppor typing skills and tendencies to type wrongly. says:
hey des

the above is a very interesting opening to a msn convo. haha.

why is it i choose not to know?
i think, somethings are better left on its own.
u know, to jus let it rot away.
maybe, when you finally could see hte world thru my eyes,
you'll learn that there are things that we shld and can,
in the end, hold on to.

and never did we try... sad.

i'm taking to listenin to your mama shouting in my ear

hey hey hey!! ok i haf recently found some new songs to like.

1. curses - bullet for my valentine
2. follow me - breaking benjamin
3. other breaking benjamin songs :P
4. history - funeral for a friend
5. 23 - jimmy eat world
6. if you could only see - tonic
7. iris(live) - goo goo dolls ft avril
8. forgive me - evanescence
9. somebocy told me - the killers (i have rediscovered my luv for this song after rockstar =D)
10. demolition lovers - mcr

aha.

anyway this week is our helmsman wk, and i actually tink it has been quite a useful one. esp the visit to smu. however i must admit if i hear another "you must follow ure dream" or another "persevere" speech, i will seriously peng. i mean ok i get the point. and i tink the card sorts were pretty useful. not that i(we) didnt noe the things, but it helped put things in perspective. for me at least.

ok peace out i'm off to watch whose line and laugh my balls off... =D

she makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand (must it be now? why not never?)

some people are REALLY very sad case and pathetic. REALLY.

of italian ankles and potugese hands.

i'll show you minneeeeeeee

some songs that make we want to hit/throw/-insert some violent action here- smthn when they go on air:
1. you're f'in beautiful
2. anythin by the click 5
3. stars are blind (its playing rite now ><)
4. life is wonderful (i have thus lost wad little respect i had for stoopid a-z.)
5. hips dont lie
6. any of the newer bep songs
7. carrie chong (ok so she isnt a song but it has the same effect on me...)
8. avril
9. madonna
10. craig david/beddingfield
11. keane (i aint sure why but i jus seriously don like them. is it any wonder?)
12. the marroon 5 singer. wadeva his name is. he sings like with his lips over his teeth lah. wtf.

u see i love my music. heh =D

in a strange state of limbo

i realise,
i always seem to surround myself with "frens".
start of last yr was aaron and amanda.
den was sws.
den was diane and daniel.
now?
theres not much really left.
and u noe wad?
it actually doesnt feel all that bad.
maybe lonliness was meant for me.
or maybe i was meant for loneliness.

its quite queer,
but dont you tink close friendships are formed in the strangest of circumstances?
ranging from a random shoppin trip to queensway,
to sitting in a stinking room tokin cock.
its quite funny.
i wonder.

you know, i thought i knew you.
now i don noe.
its like, its all so lost to me.
i miss those times we were so close,
miss those times we could read each other's minds,
miss those times we really had fun.
sitting in the middle of the rainfall.
laughing, crying, together.
dancing, bitching, hating,
everything as one.
now you've left me here alone,
and i must tell you this.
after all this time,
i still never did quite understand.
maybe it was just meant to be...

amayojunkinathong

yay today i got a new fone.

and a figured, the funny thing about humanities subjects is that they are circular subjects teaching circular stuff in a circular way. bah it drives my brain in circles. vroom vroom.

of all the freaky things in the world, it jus had to be you

my life has become disturbing shit.

ok so yesterday was rather strange. first during physics boy came in and was like "ok today our lesson will be very short. 5 mins only!" den then he tells dhevy to collect money, den went on about shit about how to build friendshhip and maintain a healthy lifestyle, we shld all go to the canteen and eat together. den like everyone peng-ed at him. den he was like "go for break!!" at first we're like okkkkayyyy and soon we were like OKAY.

den chem we finished lessons quite early too. weird.

zz den came invigorate. i am still feeling rather sad. ok at least for vball we won 2-0, adn proud little me served above 80%. heehee i am happy. budden floorball was qutie depressing lah. i mean even tho the guys team are in the final, and i tink the girls team shld get in too, we lost to 12 ): teh very sad part was that i scored the goal to put us in front. ok i must get smthn straight. I DID NOT MEAN TO SCORE DAT GOAL. seriously. firstly my intention when i hit the ball was to jus get it up into a central position. secondly i knew i totally mishit the ball. thirdly i didnt even see where the ball went. so when it went in i was positively freaked. budden, and i cant say i didnt see it comin, matt foo did his thang, and waltzed us into defeat >< it is very sad. now dat we're meeting them in the finals, ima gonna make sure nothing gets into our goal. one way or another.

ok den i went with some of them juniors to parkway kfc, and we played truth or dare, which was quite amusing. haha.

ok ok so dat was last nite. this morning something VERY freaky happened. ok so i was sleeping, den i woke up and went back to sleep again. andi was dreamin this very strange dream (as usual),when i heard a sneeze. and i heard something fall. and at this point in time i was half-awake. so i knew wad had fallen. it was my bottle of pellets for my pellet guns. and strange thing is, the battle was placed between the legs of my polar bear, which sits at the side of my bed. as in my bed theres like one part raised right, like a small cupboard, so i put my polar bear there. and den the window is at least half a metre away, so no way the wind could have blowned my bear down. AND i am positively absolutely sure i heard a sneeze.

conclusion: my bear sneezed, fell down and hence toppled the pellet bottle. which is impossible cos its a stuffed toy. but then now i'm havign my doubts.

and yes i was absolutely freaked out.

the official anti-si rant

SINGAPORE IDOL SUCKS BALLS. ANYONE WHO REMOTELY EVEN TINK ANY OF THOSE THIGNS ON THE SHOW HAVE ANYTHING REMOTELY RELATED TO TALENT IS A DUMB MORON.

IF YOU WAN TO WATCH REAL SINGING, REAL PERFORMING AND MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY HAVE TALENT, WATCH ROCKSTAR SUPERNOVA. I BEG YOU. HONESTLY. AFTER WATCHING ROCKSTAR, I WENT TO OBSERVE THE DUMB SHOW THAT IS SINGAPORE IDOL AND GUESS WAD? IT SUCKS!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY. I MEAN, FIRSTLY THE PEOPLE ON SI CANNOT ACTUALLY SING. I TINK IT MUST BE AN IDOL PHENOMENON, THE FACT THAT THE CONTESTANTS CAN HARDLY SING. OK AI IS STILL A WHOLE LOT BETTER, BUT NOWHERE EVEN CLOSE TO ROCKSTAR. I MEAN, YOU JUS COMPARE THE SONGS. COME AS YOU ARE VS IF YOU'RE GONE. A GD WITH ARMS WIDE OPEN VS A TERRIBLE MY SAC. GRRRR -.-

OH AND THE IDOLS DID A BAD DAY MTV. MY GOSH IT WAS SOOOOOO BAD X10^2N. -_-""""""""""

ARGH I HAVE RANTED. IN A DAY OR TWO I SHALL DO A PROPER ANALYTICAL BREAKDOWN OF ROCKSTAR VS SI.

no teletubbies no no

i DO NOT remotely resemble any teletubby in any form. like for real.

on another note, math lessons are wayyy screwed. i tell u dang is damn funny lah. everytime he does his hur hur laugh my whole table starts to laugh. the fact we are right at the front doesnt help. and wa lau the way dang shoot pple damn seh lah >< ahahaha. maths is wayyy funny.

i am quite pissed. today i haven done anything random yet. this sucks.

lemme ask u. if i'm better den you, and you and i both know it, does it give me the right to be arrogant?

happy birdday to you my deerest frined.

ok i have a new resolution. from this day onwards, for as long as i am able to, i shall do an absolutely pointless and random act.

mon, 17-7-06
today i sat at the bus stop opp vj for 40 mins. yea i jus sat there, watching bus after bus go past, watching people come and go. i saw like 5 36s, 3 43s, 2 48s, 2 31s, 4 196s, 2 197s, 1 55, i tink u get my point.

bah.

eating bread with kaya

how i have changed.
hear the story of my life,
now that it all falls apart.

its quite funny,
how things happen.
u know, i never quite thot it'd be this way.
call me naive, wad have u,
i guess like what they always say,
things arent meant to be.
at all.

people change.
they really do.
and in many ways too.
right before my very own eyes i have watched,
as people grow, older, more mature,
or well in some cases become more childish.

or maybe, i'm just blind.

to forget, we must first remember.

mental undressing

have you ever thout about death?
about life, and what it really means?
everytime i have time,
like on the train, in the car,
i tinnk about these things.
sometimes.
i think about,
what happens when we die.
does our conciousness just disappear?
do we become plain nothingness?

many have faith in life after death.
people want to go to heaven.
but then what?
stay there and rot
for eternity?

what about reincarnation?
when one is reincarnated 100 years on,
do we know anything of our previous lives?
logic says no.
but that little bugger inside,
he's saying, maybe.

so maybe, one day i'll be back.
ruling the world.
of course assuming i dont do that in this life.

its raining down on me...

do you believe in love at third sight?

cos maybe i'm starting to believe

everybody screaming

here i am,
listening to my heart beat.
straining my eyes,
is that me that's bleedin in the mirror?
aha. there you are. finally.
smiling, no laughing, at me.
but are you then so sure?
cos i must tell you,
i aint done with this.
stars will die,
pigs wont fly,
and i swear,
one day,
i'll find some way to be by your side cos you need me or i need you or maybe its your birthday or maybe its christmas maybe i just bump into you on the way to school thing is i really dont know how but one day i'll be with you.

-insert riff here-

hm i guess what they say is true.

justify full (no no no you just dont understand)

its funny.
life has this strange little way of screwing with u.
somehow, she always finds some way to get at you.
be it the little things,
kicking a small curb and breaking your slippers,
to the real shit.
i know its not fair to say its not fair,
for really, nothing is.
to believe anything could be fair,
foolish, i say.
so it must be that one deals with it.
one way or others.
and i already made my choice long time ago.
now it appears i live to suffer by it.
not regret, just suffer.
i cant say i was right,
but i hardly think it was wrong either.
a choice had to be made.
i'm not wondering if it was the right one,
i'm not one to dwell on such stuff.

maybe its karma.
as much as i dont believe in those shit,
it has a strange way of coming back right at you.
fight fire with fire.
to be an ass you gotta have a hole.
sherlock and holmes maybe.
i'm prob resigned to the outcome.
but at least i know,
i'm superior in more ways than one.

hey call me proud,
arrogant, condescending,
anything you want.
at the end of the day,
you and i both know,
it'll be i standing on the rooftops.
you'll be cleaning MY cellars.
so what if i do a little bit of shouting? =D

and tell me you'll be strong...

it sucks to worry.
about things that seem seas apart.
about phantom ghosts.
i feel,
when i'm worrying about someone/thing else,
somehow i start worrying about myself.
you try to help, but you realise,
the one that truly needs helpin is yourself.
answers lie not within, but without.
helpin someone,
u are asking yourself to sympathise.
empathise.
thing is, can you?
can you bring yourself to open up,
not to others, but to yourself.
are u willing to face ureself?

cos if you're not, you're better off on your own...

angels and airhorns

today is a beautiful day.

the skies are filled with stars.

there are almost no clouds in the skies.

i can look up, and count the stars, and lose myself in the wonderous emptiness.

i can look within, and lose myself into the sea of thoughts, all gravitating towards nothingness.

and then i understand.

you know, it aint over till its over. now is it?

yellow yellow skies

today is a gd day. i managed 2 blocks, 1 3-pointer, shot baove 50%, made jump shots, was 1-2 for bridge, shot the moon twice, and scored the least points for one game of hearts. 31 when aaron hit 100++.

yay. =)

i'm swinging...

you know, the muttons in the morning rock!! ok ok i'll be real. they don rock. BUT THEIR PARODIES ARE LMAO FUNNY... seriously. they are wayyy to funny... the hung up one was hilarious, and the latest clocks one is oso dman funny!! hahaha.

ok anyway on a more serious note, i wish to express my desire to have a star wars themed ip prom. seriously. play the imperial march when everyone enters the ballroom. den we can all dress as jedis. and i will somehow get a braid =D and then...

ok scrap that shit. its not gonna work. think.

-10hrs pass by-

hm ok gimme more time to think. i shall come up with a wonderful idea, since my underwater (literally), floating and star wars ideas all aint gonna cut it.

how about a red carpet event?

what does one do, when the greatest day of one's life comes and goes and one never knew it happened? tell me.

i have taken the time to categorically analyse the small things in life that makes life the bitch that she is. or well in some cases just proves that evolution never really evolved us monkeys.

1. ironing. dont u tink its kinda stupid? we spend time to make ourselves look neat, but mess it up the next minute. but we still do it aniway.

2. hair cuts. i still tink its very cheeky how people take money from you by taking things off you. i mean, things like clothes, make up etc all are put ON you, and you pay for them. haircuts they take thigns OFF you, and you pay for them. its kinda dumb really. its almost as if hair keeps growing to give these people a means of making a living.

3. moving advertistments. by far one of the dumber inventions by mankind. i mean, wads the point of an advertistment when it goes past so fast you dont have time to read them? the other day i was in the car, and we drove past this van advertising for smthn. i was like: "uh, does one like pace the van just to read the advert? hopefully its an insurance advert, so at least i'd know who to call when i'm in my hospital bed recovering from the crash."

4. ask-dan. the section on 987 where u ask daniel ong stuff. the show basically is an advertistment for 1) daniel ongs stupidity or lack of intelligence 2) his not very funny sense of humour. it gives him a chance to laugh at himself after trying to act smart. and we all just cringe. its not as if the questions werent his...

5. missing clothing. especially underwear and socks. i am very pissed. i somehow keep losing underwear and socks. i HAD 6 pairs of black ankle socks. now i have 2.5 pairs. and i'm losing underwear too! other things that have gone conspicuously missing are my $45 aiddas shirt which i actually spent my money to buy, my fila tennis shorts, my brooks shorts, among other shit.

6. whiny pple. seriously i still dont understand why they were invented. i mean, they have no function except to make life hell for you. hell i could find more use with a stone. i could use it to kill them whiny ones.

7. the handphone pouch. seriously think about it. you take extra effort to put your phone in another casing, so that in tehh case you need your phone you have to exert extra effort to remove it from the casing. oh and waste valuable rings too. stupid i say.

8. james blunt. the very epitome of a gay ugly despo fag using his 4-100 mins on tv to strip.

9. dumb statistics. such as the 0.01% rise of flu cases last week. i mean like WAD??? seriously does it raelly make it a difference?? its like, 0.01% of 4 million is......a very small number. hang on while i get my calculator. ah yes dats 400 pple? ok so now i'm scared. its like who ima gonna be among those 400 pple doomed to get flu! so i better stock up on my panadols in case!! i bet with you these stupid stats are just a ploy to boost panadol sales. afterall, pharmacies pay tax?

10. mind readers. they are serioussssly annoying people. which is why i avoid talkin to them. it jus sucks all the fun out of communication. its like,
me: "hey you..."
him: "yea yea. i agree man. that totally sucks..."
me: "uh, si..."
him: "hm sweet. no problems on that. matter of fact i'll get to it right away."
me: ><

11. fat girls with short skirts/shorts. one word. DISGUSTING. wassup with these bitches man? don they understand the simple rule? ugly legs -> cover them up. it hurts to look at these girls. i don haf a prob with girls wearing short skirts and shorts, PROVIDED they have nice legs. ok i'll settle with decent legs. but no FAT legs. argh. why dont these people understand that it is a crime to hurt others?? if i had my way all fat girls will wear long pants for the rest of their lives.

12. moments of absolute boredom, resulting in pointless acts like this. suck man...

its so easy...to rock it all niiiitttteeeee!!!!!

whoa. the following is what was going thru my head whilst i was in the toilet awhile ago:

homchelah, mehnokah.
chikichikichikichikicholahmoh,
chakachakachakachakahomchumkah!

the following is what is going thru my mind as i am typing this, realising how strange all teh above is:

WTF?!?!?!?!?

I WANT TO BE A ROCKSTAR

really. watching rockstar supernova makes me feel that way. honestly, the show rocks. pun not intended. compared to this american idol is shit. i quote marty casey (<3): "i'm too good for american idol." absolutely.

aniwae i tink the new batch has more talent. last time round last 8 already still got weak pple. however i tink previous batch more personality. there was suzie, ty, jd, and MARTY.

from ep 1 my reviews.
large chick - notin spectacular.
iris dude - woohoo!! i liked his performance
aussie dude - this guy rocks. his version of knocking on heaven's door was wonderful. and i laughed out loud when gilby clarke went "i've played this song a gazillion times." hilarious i tell u...
third girl - was aight.
icelander - boo. poor song choice, cos its so blase.
screahy chick - sang bring me to life. i absolutely loved the intro, but i realyl hate her voice. its too audrey like ><
guitar chick - i like her. abit to bland, considerin she's singing nickleback, but at least she's good at her guit.
soul guy - i'm ok with his soul concept, but i jsu don get his voice. too clear.
coldplay dude - ok LAH.
DILANA - she abssolutely rocked. at first i was like "oi wtf why u standin there not moving like a total idiot?" den she went off and i'm like "WHOA". top 5 at least.
baby girl - she has an AMAZING voice. really. not sure she's supernova tho.
wobbly guy - i agree witht he band. he aint got stage presence. too wobbly.
4-11 chick - dunno why but i don take to her.
bad tie guy - ewww. he murdered the song lah. i was like WTF.
mcr dude - he absolutely rules!! very mcr. but has a much more interestin voice and style. and funk hair too!!!!!!

yay supernova. now if only they'd get someone to sing a gnr classic. i'd die.

wah seh lamamama

die you irritatin assholic act cool ugly bad fashion sense ugly shoes ugly bag bad hair irritatin rude arrogant proud myopic poseur.

i gave us some place to go

here are some games you MUST play, jus for that little kid in you.

1. bomberman!!1
2. banzai brothers (brudders) - old old old nintendo 64 game, but classic shit.
3. pikaball ><
4. street figther, becos its so damn great.
5. worms. its so damn cute!!
6. pac man. wad can i say.
7. super mario!!!! woohoo this is like the all time greatest game.
8. monster rancher. another gay but cute game.
9. sonic. really. theres nothing like it.
10. bomberman. again cos its really so damn great.

enjoy!!! and release that kid ure holdin yea? thnx.

even when your hope is gone move along move along jus to make it thru...

here are some kinds of people i really dont like:

1. poseurs. all kinds really. they are jus serious loseurs.

2. fakes. ahh this one i have serious issues. i honestly cannot stand people who are fake. meaning they dont have a fixed persona, identity, character etc. these kinds of people act differently around different people. they conform their identity to the situation. i feel this is really pathetic and quite sad. one should take ownership of oneself, and impose your identity on the situation, instead of the other way round... i have a policy of doing things for oneself, not for others.

3. dumb people who try to act smart. this kind of people are jus so paradoxical. on one hand you want to laugh at them, on the other you also feel sorry for them for being so stupid. these people are really hopeless, cos half the time, well actually mroe than half, they are ignorant fools. you want to help them, but theres no point. theres no changin them. best to leave them alone.

4. egoistic people. they are sooo irritatin. theres the kind where they never think they are wrong. and when you prove to them they are, they still don see it and go "wadeva..." or smthn. they are so sad... then theres kind where they think everythin is their right. like say X doesnt really know Y, den X asks Y for some info, and when Y isnt willing to give, as Y is unclear of X's intentions, and also that Y doesnt really like X, X goes like "aiya fuck you lah. dont give dont give lor." i mean, you cant expect everyone to give you what they want rite??

5. people who try to act popular. i'm like go away...

6. people who are all of the above. i hope i dont know you. if i do, take it i dont =D

dont you swear at me. you aint got no right to...

the long way round

ok since i'm seriously bored and wayyy to sianded to do anything else, i have decided i shall write a very long blog entry about i'm not sure what in particular.

ok so let me start with the topic of biology, specifically the shit taught in schools. seriously, do we REALLY need to know how plants reproduce and how the artery comes after the vein? is it VITAL to know that humans are of so and so species or kingdom or what not? i mean, is there any significant bearing on our current lives? which is why i seriously tink its a stupid subject. and having a boring shit teacher helps alot too. i mean, farah doesnt jus make the lesson boring. she makes the world world slow to a friggin crawl. i honestly think she has powers of some kind, where during bio lessons she makes time slow down, prolongin the torture that is bio, den makes you drift off into sleep, only for her to pointedly ask you a question. i mean, ????. dats jus seriously inhumane lah. seriously i tink farah can be used as a means of torture.

now its not that i'm against the sciences. i think the sciences is a very honerable cause, and without it, society and the world in general would be in shits. however, the way in which teh sciences are communicated to the scientifically un-inclined or the un-scientifically inclined, its wrong. they dont make it not-interesting. they make it boring. there is a difference. whilst the former indicates that the lesson, whilst not being interesting, still has btis and pieces of value in it. the latter is berift of anything. the only thing usefull from a boring lesson is time to do other stuff like writing songs or poems or thinking up strategies of world domination.

sidetrack: here are some strange things i do when i'm very bored in class.
1. write stuff that bear fleeting resemblances to poems.
2. "draw" its more like making marks on the paper that are suppose to resemble actual or non-actual objects.
3. write down random lines of random words jumbled together.
4. write a journal entry. although i don actually have a journal.
5. hold a written conversation with cheryl, but writing in mirror. hey i can actually do that decently. and read it too. =)
6. tink of soccer formations. (since invigorate soccer is now over this prob will not happen anytime soon.)
7. write down names of things (generally bands) i like, occupying and thuis wasting a whole side of paper in my notebook.

ok sidetrack over. where was i? (nb hate me ROXXXXX!!!!)

oh yes the sciences. yea so i'm pretty much a very arts inclined person. i mean i cant draw for nuts, and i'm not even sure i can draw nuts, but i'm inclined in the sense that my humanities outstrip my sciences, and i'd pick a piano/guitar over a pipette filler anyday. however we must look at the stats. in a typical jc, say vjc, there are like 5 arts classes, compared to like 20+ sci classes. what does this tell us? 1. alot of pple actually seriously like sci, or seriously dislike arts, or suck at humans real bad. 2. alot of pple are doing what they think is best for their future, as opposed to what they want. you could say its a matter of need vs want. 3. herding instinct. everyone's doing sciences, so i shall do it oso! also, this invariably means that there will be alot of people going to uni with As in science subejcts, and prob graduate with a degree in engineering and what not. and this results in a society with lots of sciency people and not too many (some say not enough) arts inclined people. this is unavoidable. we are moving towards a society that places much focus on the sciences. the government emphasises the need to develop the art scene, and at the same time building a biohub, in ADDITION to all the other science related industries already out there.

so what is my point? my point is that whilst science is safe and ultimately perceived as the better option, other then the sciences wizs and the really interested people, i ask that people give the arts some consideration. dont listen to your parents. what do they know? think of what you want, when you want. if its still science, den go for it. but don overlook the arts so quickly.

btw yes i'm bent on taking the arts. anything else and i might as well fling myself off some building in bedok. no wait make that orchard. then sure reported in the papers one. esp if i land on some dude.

so on to my next topic. my dream house. i remember some time ago over 2 chi lessons me and eileen discussed each of our dream cribs. money not an issue of course. so what is my dream house? i havent got an exact idea, but i know what i definitely want to have. oh and i figured a 3 storey terrace with a rooftop terrace would be sweet. i base the following on it.

1. a view of the sky, unobstructed by nearby buildings. this is a must. cos i luv looking at the sky. its very zen. i'll set aside one balcony, or if possible a rooftop garden, just for me to lie back and watch the sky. on a clear night of course. and i'll jus lie on the floor. chances are half the time i'll fall asleep. if it rains? better still.

2. water feature/s. i haf this crazy idea of water flowing through every floor of my house, such that like from the terrace, theres a water feature, then it spirals down to the 3rd floor, where next to the staircase it flows down via small steps to the second floor where it waterfalls to the first floor. cool rite!! yea thing is i really like water. and i think more than anything for the movement.

3. a basement. it'll just be way cool.

4. a bridge of some sort. it'll also be way cool. maybe a structure for my house such that they are "2" buildings? connected by a bridge, where water runs beneath it. so cool!

5. a totally sound proof room. also an absolute must in my dream house. den i'll pack it with drums guits amps basses a keyboard. then we can jamm!!!! yea yea. throw in a violin or sax.

6. a garden place. some place that is green lah. cos i tink i'm quite a nature person. i enjoy natural surroundings. maybe even a corner with a little hut to sit and meditate or smthn.

haha. anyone very very very free wanna come up with some kind of design for me? i'll be eternally grateful.

so dats some things i want in my dream house. excluding the ferraris of course.

ok on to my third topic, which is that of inter-personal "relations". specifically the act or process of hating. honestly, i think hating is bloody stupid. i mean really really really dumb and pointless. of course i'm guilty of having hated people, but in retrosepct, its all dumb. i mean, when you hate a person, you're wasting time and energy to dislike someone, and the funny part is you never get anything back in return. so its a matter of throwing money away, instead of spending it. its dumb lah. when u hate someone u centre ure attention, ure energy and if bad enough your life around this person. and does this person actually feel like all sorry and bummed?? of course not! it'll onyl make him more arrogant and cocksure and feel all powerful and shit. the whole concept of hating is very paradoxical. technically the point of hating someone would be to make a persons likfe shit or something to that effect, but you're also making your own life shit. we've learnt in ss econs opportunity cost. by hating, you're giving up being happy. you're giving up enjoying your own life to worry abotu anothers life. isnt that stupid?

instead, we should all try to either like someone, or disregard someone. instead of hating, just don care. half the time, actually more, the person you hate is probably not worth hating, esp if he's a person many pple tend against. to hate a pathetic person you make yourself pathetic also. it means you're going down to his level. no point. while loving everybody is possibly impossibable and overly idealistic, we should at least try smthn to that effect. treasure those you have, and don give a shit about those you dont. dont however make it a point to hate anyone. its also bad for your health. i should know.

i have up to the previous sentence typed 1477 words. haha. accordin to ms word.

hm ok fourth topic. lets see. ok i shall discuss some things i more or less live for. the first thing is most defintiely and undoubtably music. i love music. all kinds minus most rap, heavy metal, i'm not big on techno, boring classical and crazy frog. i know how to play tow instruments, although i wish that number was a lot larger. i want to learn to play drums, bass, the sax, the violin and probably upright bass.

so why do i like music so much? there are a variety of reasons i can think of. the first would be that its something i can immerse myself into. much like playing soccer (to be discussed). it allows for me to lose myself in something, and that i dont haave to really think about other things. which is why i liek taking the mrt/bus alone. can spend quality time with my ipod. its not that i dont like takgin with people or i'm a loner or wad. its differnt lah. taking with people you can joke and talk and shit. i mean you cant tell youself a joke in the mrt rite. -.- whilst listening to music i can really lose myself into almost another world.

the second thing i like about music is how it reflects one's moods. well for me generally shit moods. i dont really listen to much happy music nowadays. but thing is, when you're, or i am, feeling down or wad, and i listen to sad, depressing music, its comforting. yea prob in some demented way, but for me its quite comforting. and like when i'm all pissed and all i can listen to music and sort of soothe myself. i reccomend the slow jimmy eat world songs, coldplay, mcr and maybe some oasis.

and the third i'm not sure whether its a legitimate reason. its nto a reason per se. its more something in me that makes me musically inclined. i enjoy playing music, whether on the guit or on the piano. its abit of the above two, but also something more. i dunno.

ok dats all i shall think for today. chao and i'll see you again.

remember, its better to have a little sense of humour in times of war, then to have no sense of humor at all. at least you die laughing.

pr0n!!

love is terribly wonderful. so is it so terrible its wonderful or so wonderful its terrible?

whats happiness if it cannot be shared? would one be able to experience the emotion of happiness if theres no one else to share it with?

why is the hardest part of having something letting go? they say you dont miss your water till its gone. i say lets all drink wine.

whats more terrifying? knowing or not knowing?

why do we believe in monsters? its but another way of looking at people non?

they say the quickest way to a man's heart is food. bullshit.

what are answers, but questions to the questions we are asking?

does one stoop low, or does one fall?

if you succeed, another must fail. so are you selfish or selfless?

there are no truths. there are only lies, bigger lies, or fake truth.

dont believe it when someone tells u something. instead, believe what they aint telling you.

i'm not gay.

how happy can one be!

YAY!!! i am so happy!!! haha. although the girls lost cap ball (i'm tryin not to ref kayu), the guys won soccer!!

ok so lets rate the performance of our player today.

jobo: 10/10. !!! the only fault i can find is prob the overkickin of freekicks. but otherwise he won the game for us with some inspired keepin. woohoo!!

henry: 8/10. he worked bloody hard lah, running all over and there. only thing is never score even tho had a few opportunities. but still played a big part in the team.

subra: 8/10. solid 4 games. esp defendin. attacking did pretty well too, but was a rock when defending. hard to imagine yea?

john: 7/10. again another tireless worker. helped out with the defence alot. although kinda off attacking, with shots goin off here and there, still worked very hard.

joel: 6/10. did a pretty decent job defendin. had a few nice attacking moves, tho lost the ball a few times. but a gd performance too.

jonathan: 6/10. did a pretty nice job defendin. although at times sucked out of position, overall not a bad job.

eugene: 5/10. helped out in the attack. tho not very defensive minded, did very well in the final match defendin. so give him credit.

dessy: 3.5/10. terrible day more or less. crossin poor, passing not too gd, no shots (expected actually), it was pretty much lousy. only plus is probably in defence, where managed to help out. clashes with lemuel and cephas >< sorry guys. must do much better!!!

yay so dats how our players fared today.