why i have a fucktard for a father remains a mystery to me

fucking hell...
i'm telling you my father is the best.

i wake up first thing he does is to lecture me, telling me how irritated he is with my attitude and all dat shit. his ohmygorduuselesspieceofshit speech... argh.

u noe, which father accuses his son, without basis, of...
- smoking
- having anything to do with sex videos
- basically anything wrong dat appears in the newspapers

oh yay now he's telling me i'm not a star. i haf not proven i'm up there. wad shit sia.

i don understand. wad did i do to deserve an asshole like him for a father? no one day is peaceful when he's around... and dats a bad thing... now i cant even be bothered. everytime he opens his damn mouth i jus zone out. its a skill i'm qutie good at now with so much practice.

bah they are playin the stupid shnupi song. ugh fuck 987 and bad music.

true.

will you be there when my conscience calls,
will you be there when i'm starting to fall.
are you really just one call away.
are you there to stop me when i start to sway.

i need to know.

and listen to me say...

dessy's top 10 songs of the moment

1. one more moment - ronin
2. somewhere out there - our lady peace
3. crazy son - ronin
4. work - jimmy eat world
5. pieces - sum 41
6. let there be love - oasis
7. far away - nickleback
8. blind - lifehouse
9. lights and sounds - yellowcard
10. when the sun goes down - arctic monkeys

i desperately need some cheering up.

of darkness and deep valleys

sigh. theres so much work i gotta do. i haf to hand up all my overdue work by 12 noon 2day. sian. i haf 4 physics stuff, 3 maths assignments and an ss essay to complete. fuck. and i havent even started. shit. i'll be up till 4... bitch.

i look up at the lights,
all hanging over me.
greet the strangers that
walk past me.
yet time has gone past,
memories will fade away.
looking at the pages of my life,
watch as they fade away,
so far away.

took that shot in life,
only to realise,
i was mistaken.
every hour, every minute,
everytime i look at you,
i realise,
you're all i'm living for.

never a good time to say goodbye,
like a distant memory,
of times that keep slipping away.
time will be the one which holds you down.
those words come out,
when those you want have gone away.
give me one more moment,
if i beg would you please.

stars shine, only to laugh at you.
stones turn to mock you.
dawn breaks,
but i cant see the light.
life so tangled up
in all the shit i'm through.

even the best fall down sometime...

fuck the girl i'm looking for

bah after many days of inactivity on the guitar my fingers have become all crappy again. bleh. shall start playing again. yay.

BAH I HATE THE FUCKING CLICK FIVE AND ALL THAT SHIT.

ali baba, ali ali baba...

muhahahaha!!! i am so very happy now!! ah!!!!!!

ok so my performance jus ended a couple of days ago, and overall it was wonderful. i mean absolutely fantastic. haha. the performances went really well, with no major screw ups or anything. and everyone wad so high!!! hahaaha!!

sigh i guess we'll all miss alibaba 06. and rightly so. all the fun times we had, playing a fool, listenin to the oh-so-lame jiantong, watching/listenin to yunkai and junyi fool around... lol. the qiang dao 'deng deng deng' mv. lmao. yihao and jiarui's jokes and all the crap. and the feeling after performing. the feeling of accomplishment. i think dats wad we'll all miss the most.

sigh. i am already missing alibaba so much. but its over. the show will go on.

onward!!!!!!!

tales of a tormented soul, sounds of the dredged past

its so hard to put the past behind you.
cos it always seems to come back to haunt you.
as much as you want to leave it behind,
bury it and leave it to die,
somehow it never does want to stay still.
either people will bring it up,
and you yourself will recall the past.
regret is the biggest culprit.
regret makes us worry.
regret makes us want to look back,
makes us need to look back.

your mistakes,
they will haunt you.
forever.
people change, things change,
i guess people jus don see it.
but i shall abstain from saying anythin,
less i be framed or smthm.
but lets put it all behind,
and start over.

as nobodys.

that, or fond memories.
of the times we had.
the life we enjoyed.
its like the feeling is gone,
it doesnt feel right anymore.
how i wish that we could turnback time,
but sadly we cant.
we haf to live with it.
i haf to live with the mistakes i made.
and i cant say id on regret them.
i do, very very much.
i would give almost anything to haf those times back.
to undo what i've done.

but sadly the show will go on...

i want to change the world,
but all i have isnt enough.
yet i will change the world.
jus wait and watch.

i want you here tonight,
i need you by my side,
for jus one more moment,
for jus one more moment with you...

dont phunk with his heart

diane is in love with dang lah. seriously.

to those hu will say i'm 'jealous': well i'm not. theres notin jealous to be about. don believe me too bad.

i lie and i'm proud of it

the horrors of homework and the bloody lit essay

work has been piling up like crazy this term. and i suspect (yes i really do) datits gonan get a whole lot worse. this doesn nto bode well for me. den again when does work every bode well for anyone?
point is, i believe we all must work out some strategies to dela with this impending doom that will be homework, and all the other projects to boot.

desmond's guide to surviving homework overload

1. DONT DO ANYTHING.
hey this is a very effective method. at least you won be all stressed and all. and u don really haf to work very hard for this. downsides: parents, teachers, ultimtaely your marks. effectiveness: 2/10

2. DO SOME AND DON DO OTHERS
well this isnt dat difficult to do either. u can choose to do the subjects you like, and forget about the rest. u'll be kinda relaxed to :) downsides: parents, teachers and ultimately ure results, but to a lesser extent den in method 1. effectiveness: 4/10

3. DO MOST AND MISS OUT ONE OR TWO
i believe by far the most widely used method. probrably because of the effort:end result ratio. this methid gives u the most pay off for that amount of effort. downside: stress lor. effectiveness: 7/10

bah i'm sleepy. jus finished my cocked up lit essay. screwed is the new me. muhahahaha. shall continue this some other time if i'm bored enough

some weird and funny shit. props to subra.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Desmond!

1. According to the story, Pinocchio was made of desmond.
2. The Australian billygoat plum contains a hundred times more Vitamin C than desmond.
3. When provoked, desmond will swivel the tip of his abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at his attacker.
4. Desmond, from the movie of the same name, had green blood.
5. Human beings are the only animals that copulate while facing desmond.
6. Medieval knights put the skin of desmond on their sword handles to improve the grip!
7. Desmond can give birth ten days after being born, and is born pregnant!
8. In his entire life, desmond will produce only a twelfth of a teaspoon of honey.
9. Europe is the only continent that lacks desmond!
10. South Australia was the first place to allow desmond to stand for parliament.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Dessy!

1. If you drop dessy from the top of the Empire State Building, he will be falling fast enough to kill before reaching the ground.
2. A thimbleful of dessy would weigh over 100 million tons.
3. Apples are covered with a thin layer of dessy.
4. Dessyocracy is government by dessy.
5. Originally, dessy could not fly.
6. Baskin Robbins once made dessy flavoured ice cream.
7. During World War II, Americans tried to train dessy to drop bombs!
8. In the Spanish edition of Cluedo, dessy is the victim.
9. It takes 8 minutes for light to travel from the Sun's surface to dessy!
10. Dessy cannot be detected by infrared cameras!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Noraa!

1. The air around noraa is superheated to about five times the temperature of the sun!
2. The number one cause of blindness in the United States is noraa.
3. Noraa was invented in China in the eleventh century, but was only used for fireworks, never for weapons.
4. Originally, noraa could not fly!
5. A chimpanzee can learn to recognize itself in a mirror, but noraa can not!
6. Without its lining of noraa, your stomach would digest itself!
7. Noraa is the largest of Saturn's moons.
8. Noraa can pollinate up to six times more efficiently than the honeybee.
9. If you blow out all the candles on noraa with one breath, your wish will come true.
10. The only planet that rotates on its side is noraa.

lmao.

diane/pea

pearlyn and diane have turn lesbian. seriously. i mean, the way they fondle each other and make eyes at each other, and contstantly leaving impressions (read: marker stains) on the other jus goes to show how lesbian they are. but in all seriousness, they haf changed for the worse. as henry put it, they've become mroe childish. much more. and i haf to qutoe subra here: "they are not the same pple whom i once could talk to about.... things". how true. its like i don noe them anymore. they arnt the same pple i used to know. i don like the new look diane and the new look pearlyn.

generally, nowadays they are jus plain irritatin. not funny, jus irritatin. maybe its jus me, but i tink the reason i'm so irritated by the both of them is because i used to know different people. and i am saddened to see them having degenerated to this current state. sigh. i'm jus hopin things will change for the better. but i doubt it will.

changing lanes, changing worlds.

gay gilbur

gay and theres no denying it

well, i have come to the conclusion that wilbur is gay. not a hard one, but still a conclusion nonetheless.

so, why do i say this? well the reasons are as follows:

1. wilbur is actively against gays/homosexuality etc. this is due to the fact that he wants to keep secret his sexual orientation, and the best way to do this was to claim to hate gays and want to kill htem all. this is but a facade. in truth, wilbur is actually gay. so do not be fooled by him.

2. when u touch him, wilbur reacts very violently. the reason for this is that he gets instantly turned on, and thus displays a very sudden burst of emotion. wilbur loves to be touched, but again claims to hate being touched so we won suspect him of being gay. so do not be fooled by him.

3. wilbur touches ganesh. i've got nothing more to say, except do not be fooled by wilbur.

DO NOT BE FOOLED BY WILBUR!!!

confessions

confessions of 300 unmarried was a bad play. seriously. it was pretty bad.

i'm too sian to blog about it jus yet. maybe another time. ATOMIC JAYA!!

belief in all that you must. know that you are wrong on all counts.

franz ferdinand

FRANZ FERDINAND!!!!! AHH!!!!

woohoo. the concert rocked.

pluses.
1. alex kaprano standin on the bass drum (lols at lester who missed it)
2. 3 people 1 drum
3. nick mccarthy's dancing (woohoo)
4. great music (!!)
5. take me out.

minuses
1. serious lack of covers. lester told me they covered watcha waitng 4 in one of their concerts >.>
2. relatively short concert.
3. no encore.
4. painful lights. sometimes.

franz ferdinand rocks. woot.

liking her for me

liking her for me

i've been thinking. people our age, we're always liking people/getting into relationships. but is there really a need to? lets analyse this logically and systematically.

what are the advantages of getting attached?
- to feel wanted. to know for a fact that someone desires you. its good for the ego.
- to feel needed. its also good for the ego.
- to boast. like look i haf a bf/gf. coolness is me.
- emotional comfort. being attached gives someone that sense of comfort, the sense that theres ssomeone to fall back on.
- physical needs. not sex, but physical intimacy. we're genetically engineered for it.

what are the disadvantages of being attached?
- distraction. one loses sight of own priorities. slowly.
- isolation. to diff extents, but essentially you are creatin a world of your own.
- restriction. theres alot of things you cant do when you're attached. or at least you will set some boundaries on yourself. wheres the fun in that?
- break up. its inevitable. can you deal with it?

so is being attached a good or bad thing? my conclusion is that as long as you dont let it get to far, it wont hurt you too bad. yes it'll hurt, but the pain is necessary. we will all experience the pains of "love" sooner or later. so why not sooner? as long as you dont take the relationship too far (we are only 15-16 after all), then why not? the experience should be good.

however, there is a problem. the problem is finding that person. a person who you like, and likes you back. liking people isnt hard. finding people who like you isnt that hard. finding someone who likes you and you can like back or vice versa is the diffucult part.

but hey. dats what we live for isnt it? answers, conclusions and ultimately, problems.

be careful what you wish for...

i am so dead.

thurs, 16 feb
sch: 7.40 - 3.05
interhse bowling: 5.45 - ?
franz ferdinand concert: 8 - ?
homeworl: eat shit.

fri, 17 feb
work due: 2 maths assigments, 1 lit essay, 1 ss essay.
sch: 7.40 - 3.05
sl meeting/physics meetin: - 3.30 - ?
go check out air rifle with subra: ?

i'm like so screwed.

woohoo to me.

new template

haha yay i got a new template for my blog.

some reasons why i did so:
1. my old template was gettin pretty old
2. time for some change i guess
3. its best to disassociate myself .

everyone say "yay!!"

kiss my arctic monkeys

stop making the eyes at me

this is a story.
a story about a rabbit.
this rabbit, he was different.
instead of the usual floppy ears,
his ears were stubby.
useless for hearing, really.

but no, this rabbit was not discouraged.
he did everything he could to fit in with the rest.
he walked like they did,
he talked like they did,
he even slept as they did.

but there was no denying the fact,
that he was different.
too different.

dirty dancefloors and dreams of naughtiness!

now this rabbit,
he wanted to badly to be like the rest.
but sadly, maybe he didnt know it,
but his antics,
they'd seen it all.
they were old, last century.

scantily clad under the clear night sky

the rabbit, he persevered.
everyday he would watch them other rabbits,
watch them as they laugh,
as they made merry.
then the rabbit, he would bug them.
wanted a share of their carrots he did.
he persisted,
made himself a pain in the ass,
just so maybe, he could be like them.

but he never did.
and he never will.
because why?
this rabbit, he never learned.
not with stubs for ears.

the point's that there aint no romance around there

when i die who's gonna be there to catch me?

school so far hasnt been too good. lagging in hw, sleepin in class, playing bridge during lessons (slbeit only clhi), all these don bode well for my academic year ahead. but still, all these should not be happening. i am supposed to be catching up with my work and shit, but i am evidently not doing so. playing too much nba live doesnt help.

why? i often ask myself this question. and the answer is surprisingly simple. i aint scared. nto enough for me to start working damn hard. when will i start becoming gan cheong and everything? i dunno. i seriosuly dont. i noe alot of people will say i am digging my own grave, and to an extent its true. i'm putting faith in the fact that i will eventually deliver.

happiness. sweetness. the smell of silence.

we should all think positive.
really.
i mean, why bog yourself down with negative thoughts?
think happy, and think free.
it'll only make you happier,
more relax.
why worry and be sorry?
instead we should adopt a positive attitude to life.
yes optimism someitmes only leads to greater disappointment,
but if you dont even take the rest,
you'll definitely never understand the beauty of life.
for optimism opens your eyes to the smaller things,
to the finer details, to the tiny beauties,

succeed, or fail.
make, or break.
hunt, or be hunted.
live, or let live.
choose.