OHHHHHH SWEEEET CHIIIILD OOOFFFF MIIIIINEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

AH MOTHER FUCKING HELL. ROCKSTAR SUPERNOVA OFFICIALLY REWROTE EVERY POSSIBLE DEFINITION OF A SICK SHOW. OMFG!!!! THIS WEEK WAS SOOOOOOO SICK IT WAS INSANE. LUKAS' ARRANGEMENT OF LITHIUM WAS OFF THE CHARTS, MAGNI'S PERFORMANCE WAS TIGHT, RYAN'S THINGS WERE O_O O_O O_O. I MEAN, STANDING ON TOP OF THE PIANO, THE SLIDE AND PLAY, THE WEIRD CRAWLING THING??? SOOOO SICK. STORM'S WAS GOOD, ESP WITH TOBY'S VOCALS. DEN TOBY REALLY BROUGHT EVERYTHING TO A NEW LEVEL. BRINGIN UP HOT CHICKS ON STAGE, HAVING THE BEST BEST BEST SINGALOONG PART I'VE EVER HEARD, MAN!!! DILANA'S PERFORMANCE WAS KILLING TOO.

AHHHHH. THIS SHOW IS TOOOOO FUCKING SICK. GO AWAY WHILST I BASK IN ROCKSTAR MADNESS.

pekcheking.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. now i realise theres a HUGE diff btw new and seasonede strings. cos like my previous set at least got quite a few months liao. actually, i tink those strings have been on for like almost a yr. but den i ystd decided to change all of them lah, considerin i bought the new strings also diff size one. gah now i play i wan to cry can...... gaah. stupid g-string grr.

attempt. its but an attempt.

yes. dats all there is to it isnt it?
try, try, and try again.
when u don succeed, try again.
so try i try.
i guess that really has been what its all about.
always trying.
but there lies a paradox of sorts isnt it?
u keep trying,
you never fail, you never succeed.
you jus keep trying.
then, ask ureself,
wad EXACTly are u trying for?
honestly, i'm quite as lost as u are.

yea yea yea so you say it over and over again.
honestly, i tink i'm too nice for my own good.
or rather, somehow i jus cant let it all go even when i want to.
its painful u noe.
much like a fucking vicious cycle,
it all comes back to haunt all of us.
ouch my insides are hurting.

i want, yet i don want.
i know, yet i don know.
its all very confusing.
i haven felt this way since i dunno when lah.
a matter of neither here nor there,
jus someone right in between.
its like, i can never be sure.
its all me, its all me.

gah i'm too confused lah.
happy, but confused.
in a nice sort of way.

in the middle of the night...

yes h yes h yes h

i really really really really really cant wait for the damn eoys to end. cos after i can start spammin my guit like free liddat. haha. and prob daniel's/lester's too, considerin we gotta prac for prom ><><

in the middle of the night...

yes h yes h yes h

i really really really really really cant wait for the damn eoys to end. cos after i can start spammin my guit like free liddat. haha. and prob daniel's/lester's too, considerin we gotta prac for prom >< hahahaha.

ok so so anyhow, i am feeling very strange. cos for ocne in my life i am actually feeling inspired to study. i mean, i actually now want to study. not mug, study.

this is sooooo scary. ><

hump

"in a world without walls or fences, what use do we have for Windows or Gates?"

tink about it.

if u dont dont why dont u say so

YAY. i am very happy. cos i passed my maths test, did my chem test, and now there are no more tests until the eoys!!!! wooo! and oso for some unknown reason i feel inspired to study. like really. freaky man.

AND PLS EVERYONE, I AM NOT TURNING INTO A MUGGER. I AM JUS GENUINELY, AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, KINDA WORRIED ABOUT MY MARKS. I STILL HATE MUGGERS THROUGH AND THROUGH. YAY.

fuck u u bitch, i dont want u back

argh i am gonna start a kill dilana the bitch campaign. serious she is officially shit. rawr. i hate her lah. so bitch. no sense of respect wadsoeva. she shld jus go die.

i am now officially supporting ryan all the wayyyy!!!!! haha with lukas close behind. i haf this freaky notion of goin to prom lukas-y. it'd be damn fun.

and after lit i finally realised the term for wad i am. self-indulgent ><

i need to start worrying really

waha so i went aaron's blog are saw the uber funny quiz thing and hence messed with it myself check out these shit ><:

dessy -- [adjective]: Sexually stunning 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

like O_O

dessy -- [noun]: A person who laughs at anything (even this entry) 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hm quite true actually :P

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

muhahaha spielberg ^^

What crazy thing will be your demise?

A ticket to see Carrot Top live in Vegas

... (why?)

Because you sold your soul to satan to get possesion of it

'What crazy thing will be your demise?' at QuizGalaxy.com

uh, okaay. carrot top??

You are 66% Emo You are pretty Emo. You like the music, styles and way of life but it doesn’t really control your life. There is more to you than just another cute Emo face. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

woooo.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

story of my life really...

Death through drugs/alcohol You are going to die drowning after drinking too much/doing too many drugs. Dying like all of the greatest rockers – because you live like one. You like to party and experiment with perception. Rock on hippie. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

lols.

You fit in with: Humanism Your ideals mostly resemble that of a Humanist. Although you do not have a lot of faith, you are devoted to making this world better, in the short time that you have to live. Humanists do not generally believe in an afterlife, and therefore, are committed to making the world a better place for themselves and future generations. 0% scientific. 60% reason-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

check it out 0% scientific!!!!!!

uhhh, ok. wad the fuck.

burn it down

i realise, i am a person who doesnt like loose ends. in fact, i hate them. i absolutely loath leaving things hanging. which is why when people say smthn or i hear smthn, i always want to at least come to some conclusion about it. and i hate it when people give the look, hte "hehe i know smthn that u don haha" look. ok so i do that also >< i mean, when people asy smthn den never really explain wad they mean or wad, its jus weird for me, cos i don like to guess. either i know, or i don. in betweens suck. but hey, my lifes an in between. hooray.

hm i shall go on a bloggin hiatus. like maybe 2 days or smthn. smile bitch

or am i part of the disease

if you're lost you can look and you will find me...

ok i am very bored, haf a lit essay and assignment to do, a chem prac report, maths, and wadeva shit else there is. point is, i don wanna do nuts. so i shall do smthn else! wee. (ok i don tink i'm makign sense. wadeva. when did i ever make sense aniwae?) ok so what shall i do? i shall do a 'quiz'!! yay!! woohoo!! and i figured it shall be a music related quiz haha.

The one song that...

makes you want to puke everytime its played: stars are blind. like woohoo.
makes u tink of killing someone: you're beautiful. no contest here.
inspires you: hotel california (live). up till now it still is sooo damn good.
is complete nonsense: lemon tree. like wtf? i turn around, upside down? dats now even right...
makes you want to jump for joy: the victorian anthem after some occasion. :D
best represents you: hmmm. half my life creep half my life scars.
gives you goosebumps everytime u hear it: bohemian rhapsody (live at freddy mecury tribute concert) jus listen to the friggin crowd.
makes you laugh: i want to ride my bicycle. hahahahaha.
keeps you awake no matter what: curses. or bohemian rhapsody. so much for one song eh?
best describes ure best friend: hmmm. scars? :P haha actually no i tink everytime is more apt. maybe.
least describes you: hahaha. um, you're beautiful? haha kidding. i'm not gay. i dunno really. if you could only see o.0


the ________ bunch of lyrics ever:
dumbest: "don wanna be an american idiot" must i elaborate?
lamest: "i want to hold ure handdddddd..." sorry but it is jus very lame.
most meaningless: "Scaramouche, Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango." uh like ok wadeva. its still a fantastic song nonetheless.
most meaningful:

ok lets do plurals.

5 sweet songs:
nothing compares to you - the lyrics are nice.
truly madly deeply - aiya i've loved this song since like i was 10 or smthn...
blind - haha i jus luv this song too much. its not even thaaat sweet i tink. but hey hu cares?
save tonight - i especially like the rockapella version. so nice x)
i don wanna miss a thing - how can u not love this song??

5 songs that makes u wan to dance:
crazy little thing called love. how could u not??
take me out. like duuuuh.
the middle. the chorus is very danceble.
i like to move it - :D
i want you - savage garden - =)))))) hehe.

5 songs that are SERIOUSLY overplayed at some point in time:
the reason. 100% winner. i swear i use to hear it every hour or less.
hips don lie. grrr.
danicalifornia. -.- i cant stand the song really.
makedamnsure - anf for good reason :D
these walls. gah.

the song(s) for the ______:
nerds: the geeks get the girl :D
rockers(?): aiya so many lah.
depressed: pieces, i miss you, mistaken, hate me, november rain, and so so many much more
happy: jump by the faders haha.
losers: haha got so many lah.
punk wannabes: sk8er b0i. or however its written.
sensitive person in you: losing my religion by ryan star. wooooots.

gah i'm too tired to tink. hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

pangs

yes i have strange urges.

i realise, i am a very impulsive person. i eat impulsively, i shop impulsively, or rather i buy impulsively, i talk impulsive, i act impulsively, i basically lead life very impulsively. is this a good or bad thing? i dunno. sometimes its good, sometimes its bad, but many a time its just somewhere in between. thats it then. my life is in like eternal limbo. wee.

and i get cramps too wtf.

say yes, say no. jus dont say maybe.

我现在发现，感情不是找到的，而是培养的。

its quite true isnt it?
and it not necessarily love or wadeva.
even jus friendship.
its jus i realise, i guess everything it all takes some time.
thing is, do you have that time to give?
or are u willing to wait?
patience afterall, is a virtue.
obviously, absolutes are a dangerous thing.
can one deal in absolutes?
is able able to do so?
u noe, forever isnt that long.
but den again, maybe it is.

u ask me if its worth it.
till now, i still dont know.
as i burn another page...

lemon trees suck

gah i haf jus remembered lemons suck xP. ok actually when i eat made to come anywhere remotely close to a lemon my face is more like X( muhaha. lemons are painful u noe. afterall, its acidic. ><

so when life gives u lemons? smile (:

and noe smthn. to give someone the finger and to finger someone is VERY different. jus so we all are clear.

cleaning out my closet

or rather, the skeletons in my closet that doesnt exist.

aye i have jus cleared all my neoprints from my wallet. they shall now move to somewhere in my hse safe. why? i oso dunno. feel like it. today i'm in the mood to change the world.

bite me.

um, yea. so i do. so wad?

fuck. i am so screwed... haiz.
i haf loads of work to do.
sip, lit, maths, chem, wad not,
and most importantly, STUDYING.
yet wad do i end up doin?
i play nba live. like -.-
i am so seriously screwed like really.

yep i tink i'm mentally pretty fucked up.
now as i am,
i'm getting tired of school.
i'm tired or work.
i'm tired of playing games.
i'm tired of the air-con.
as of now i am also quite tired of the damn fan.
honestly,
i need something, anything.
for me to hold on to,
for me to get me through.

honestly? i dont haf very much.
and sometimes,
i guess what i haf jus doesnt cut it.
it jus isnt enough.
i love my music,
but if i cant translate even a minute percentage of that into my work,
its pointless.
i mean, i'm now listening to a playlist if ballads.
i don really understand why.
i'm doing things i never did,
yet i dunno if i works.
rather, i dunno if it can work.
maybe, maybe its jus too late.

i find it very ironic and thus saddenning,
that it always seems as if one can never apply the advice one gives others to oneself.
if i could, i wouldnt be the way i am today.
would i?
or maybe i was meant to be this way.
god's little game of reality.

pawn, bishop, knights, even king?
forget it. titles don matter,
cos after all, ure all jus little stupid chess pieces.

many many more days in time...

if people are loving you to bits,
what then is the fair and/or right thing to do?
do you allow yourself the possibility to be hurt?
or do you prevent ureself from feeling the pain all over again?
den again, is there a real need to choose?
you know the answer,
its all about having the will to follow through.

someday you will know

ouch i jus sat on my belt. ok today was is a very good day. haha. yay. today i went to the library intendin to study, and actually i did manage to study abit. like probability and stats. which is actually very little. however, it was a very productive because i learnt many things. =) hahahaha. den aniwae i pang sehed visa ('s band) instead to go arcade and take neos. not that i regret it because i haf at last found the best neopriint machine ever!!! muhahahaha. wtf was spammin like free liddat... bwah. but i am very sad because like 2 games of ddr i could haf easily gotten a 100% combo, budden screw it up like free liddat lah GAH. rule of ddr: never look at the other's person screen. bah. and crabs are nice ^^

i'm so happy, cos today i found my frens...
yeah yeah... yeah yeah yeah....
yeah yeah... yeah yeah yeah...

i fell into a burning ring of fire...

...and i came out feeling all so strange. \\
YAY. today is a good day. today the floorball guys won!!! haha yea yea i am happy. the girls got second due to some super underhand tactics and fucked up officailling, but hey wad can we do. i quote: "cheating gets it faster" - get it faster, jimmy eat world. haha how true. anyway the guys match was quite exciting, and when i was playing somehow i felt things were right. i tink i really pushed myself very hard, and liek fight for the ball lah. and actually it did get rather physical and some points but hey dats where all the fun is rite? haha. and yah lah today i tink i was quite on form, didnt lose the ball that much dribbling. and my tackling today was qutie gd, so i'm happy!! haha.

anyway many yays to everyone that took part in invigorate, and also to the pple hu organised it. YAY. wootso.

my little black book

yes my little black book.
know wad? i love my little black book.
its my little black book,
where i store fragments of my life,
why i write all knds of rubbish,
and in between some sense.
my little black book,
it is rather precious.
indeed, there are secrets in there,
things most people do not know,
but hey? who cares rite?
my life is boring and lame and pointless,
and most of all, no one really gives a fuck.
but guess wad? i don give a fuck either!!
(:
so my little black book,
its my little escape from reality.
its my saviour from the evil clutches of doom,
otherwise known as bio or evil chi talks.
haha, my little black book talks.
i wonder, if i ever lost my little black book,
would i cry?
honestly, i dont tink so.
in terms of pure content alone,
my little pink book was substantially more...important.
there was more in that little pink book.
but why do i even bother?
its quite simple really.
i want to remember.
simple as that.
haha.
i'm quite the reminiscer u noe...
i need a means of actually storing my memories,
cos my brain certainly fails on that aspect.
its something of a diary,
if less organised,
and theres more stuff inside.
like bio and ss notes and song lyrics which suck.
HAH.

oh and btw, anyone wants to get me a new little black book? my current one is gonna die soon.

on the verge of madness and i'm still lost