wow

oh my lord the resistance tour.

went jamming. first time in a long time. felt real good.

Fame

i'm a pessimistic guy. life sucks.

i think the hardest thing to do is to accept one's flaws. everyone has flaws. major ones, minor ones, they all add up. its easy to hide our flaws, or at least some of them. or perhaps not hide, but to disguise them. its more difficult to be true to oneself and to live by those flaws. everyone wants to be perfect, but no one is. what differentiates us from each other? its not who's better at math or econs, not who runs faster, not who sings better. at the end of the day, it comes down to whose more fucked up. because we are all judgemental people. acheivements are easy to ignore, easy to forget. people, not so easy.

We'll fight to defend our country,
We'll fight to protect our economy. 
We'll fight to safeguard our way of life, 
But who's fighting to keep our dreams alive?

Silent Non-conversation

HuiMin says: (5:47:08 PM)
it is so a bunny

HuiMin says: (5:47:11 PM)
its a peep bunny

bobthemob says: (5:47:13 PM)
it is so not a bunny

bobthemob says: (5:47:20 PM)
which bunny has no limbs? huh?

HuiMin says: (5:47:22 PM)
IT IS SO A BUNNY

HuiMin says: (5:47:25 PM)
THAT BUNNY

bobthemob says: (5:47:32 PM)
has no mouth

bobthemob says: (5:47:42 PM)
like hello kitty

HuiMin says: (5:47:49 PM)
i was just going to say that

HuiMin says: (5:47:59 PM)
my mouse has a mouth

bobthemob says: (5:48:03 PM)
yoshi doesnt :(

bobthemob says: (5:48:14 PM)
his nose is too big -.-

HuiMin says: (5:48:15 PM)
yes he does

HuiMin says: (5:48:17 PM)
he has a jaw

bobthemob says: (5:48:20 PM)
or rather, -O-

HuiMin says: (5:48:25 PM)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHA

HuiMin says: (5:48:49 PM)
-O-


Huimin shows off her LSE "penguin".

bobthemob says: (5:49:37 PM)
it looks retarded

HuiMin says: (5:49:41 PM)
its a penguin

HuiMin says: (5:49:43 PM)
you look retarded

bobthemob says: (5:49:51 PM)
cool and retarded

HuiMin says: (5:49:59 PM)
but still retarded

bobthemob says: (5:50:00 PM)
at least i'm in colour

bobthemob says: (5:50:04 PM)
not monochrome -.-

bobthemob says: (5:50:06 PM)
-O-

HuiMin says: (5:50:49 PM)
HIS BEAK IS FREAKING YELLOW

bobthemob says: (5:50:54 PM)
its a lie

HuiMin says: (5:51:09 PM)
what EVER

HuiMin says: (5:51:15 PM)
youre just like

HuiMin says: (5:51:18 PM)
all brown

bobthemob says: (5:51:24 PM)
the endless red tape will keep the truth confined.

bobthemob says: (5:51:26 PM)
-O-

HuiMin says: (5:51:31 PM)
whatever fat cat

all this, in an msn conversation, together with skype on.

this is why i have the awesomest friends ever.

Fat

i just went for a swim, then came up and finished a 2 yolk mooncake. whoopee, back to square zero.

FX

i spent the last 10 min sitting on the floor in front of mt gt-8, doing nothing but turning every single knob i can turn, with the feedbacker turned on. what madness.

my ears are still ringing, my head just only stopped spinning.

Money Money Money

lately have been having slightly messed up thoughts. too many things happening, too little time to fathom an explanation.

its starting to feel a little bit quiet, a little bit lonely.

money money money, always not enough money. 
what can i buy, with limited money money money.
Strange word, m-o-n-e-y. 
its easy to borrow, its easy to find,
but oh money money money why wont you just be mine.

59.99

Bliss. 

30% of my puny ipod is muse. wow.

Yet one more

it hasnt sunk in yet. everyone leaving, you dont quite feel it. not yet.

i wonder what it'd be like if i did leave. for one, there'll prob be hardly anyone around to see me off, so less emotional baggage in a way. two, its a long time away, dont think about it. three it prob will never happen.

sigh. i do feel sad. but i think only over the next few weeks will it really hit me that everyone's kinda gone. the gang just isnt quite the same without all of them. i know we'll be hanging on to all the residual memories, because that's all we'll have. technology may bridge the time and distance gap, but it wont bring us any closer to each other.

there are times i wish a were just a normal boy. but most of the time i'm thankful i'm not.

Soon, another

been very busy. been more busy that i would have liked to be.

i wish time would slow down, allow me more time to say my goodbyes.

BUZZING

OH MY GOD I CANT WAIT FOR THE RESISTANCE OMG OMG OMG. THE VIDS OF THE TEIGNMOUTH CONCERT ARE AMAZING. UNNATURAL SELECTION FTW OMG.

OMG OMG OMG.

*FANBOY MADNESS*

Right Now

its been quite an uplifting week, in the sense that there was nothing downtroddening about the week. outfield sucked, but outfield always sucks.

bickered the night away with xtine, was great fun.

been wondering a lot lately, but not really thinking very much. thinking is tiring. but the resolution of recent times is managing the psp-guitar ratio. more guitar, less psp.

oh my god. august just disappeared, money-wise. what the fuck happened??? i am quite pissed with myself. ok no. damn freaking pissed. going to go on serious diet for sept.

ah its the caffeine in me talking. i've got so much caffeine in my system i'm buzzing. really really buzzing. its all coming out too quickly and incoherently.

To write a song

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly


its so easy, and yet so hard

Use Somebody

i think to tell the truth the week has been fairly interesting, although nothing significant actually happened. i wondered about many things, i thought about what it means to be me, and still i have no conclusions.

i have to get away from games. its too easy, and too meaningless. i got to make my time worth something, if that's the only thing i do.

chirpy chippy chop

heh, changed the url. same old retarded person posting the same old retarded things to.

i feel happier already.

hey, i'm doing ok.

i understand something now. i miss msn. i miss the security and neutrality it offers. its so easy to say something or do something, because you dont have to deal with immediate judgement and response.

fine fine, i'm a coward.

Smart, but

between a couple of stones and a wall of rock,

we talk so much we're bound to rot.

its been a long week. its been more frustrating than i would have liked it to be. right now i'm just wondering how long more till i can figure this out.

if i am the moon, then you are the sun. and all that stands between us is the world. together we are an eclipse. what bullshit.

identity is a curious thing. i've kinda figured, one's identity is a social construct, a defense mechanism when around strangers. i mean when you're around friends, close friends, this whole "identity" rubbish tends to just fade away. because lets face it its about what we make of ourselves as much as what others make of us. and when neither matters, then identity ceases to exist. i believe one only really needs an identity when venturing out into the unknown, entering the abyss that is society. its terrifying to an extent.

so i've been trying to figure out my identity, to very generally put it. its not about figuring out who i am. its figuring out who people perceive me to be. cos i've concluded the person i think i am is vastly different from the person people think i am. i think i'm boring. and yet people can come up with such interesting stories, i myself am rather shocked. its always a case of "i did that??", or "i could do that??". there's a lot of differences here i need to try to reconcile, if not i'm going to forever be living in the shadow of a person i'm not.

who wants everything?

we'll fall in line, pay for our crimes,

looting the lives of those left behind.

blessing, or curse?

once more it has happened. i open my safari browser, surf all the usual websites, read my email, think about whether to pre-order the resistance, slack around, bop my head to some awesome itunes music, check to make sure my game is downloading, blog surf, think about what other sites i havent yet visited, then conclude that i've done all the necessary internet surfing there is to do. now to just read and reply my emails.

and then i realise, i haven't gone to facebook.

Little Expectation

i realise i'm always wanting the things i cannot get. its perpetual disappointment contained in a hat.