how i wish,
we could just dissapear,
go into that far away place,
places where people were real.
where the seas were really black,
where the skies are never that blue,
place we call reality.
living in this otherworld,
fighting for everything we want,
but for what cause?
chasing dreams always so far away,
running further and further
from that elusive plane of reality.
every morning waking up,
look out to see cars speeding pass,
rushing off to work,
students hurrying to school.
is it any wonder?
brought up in this world,
where money is everything,
jobs earned on degrees,
how does the common man survive?
it is said we are moving away from
a money-minded society,
or one where getting a degree is everything,
but can we?
what with the IP, school ranking, etc etc.
the lords sure as hell aint helping.
can we get away?
leave and to never come back.
if only.
- AA, AG (why do i even.)
- losing sight //
Saturday, May 28, 2005
mistaken
parousia.
today me, henry, subra, cheryl and pearlyn went out for dinner/shopping. we didn't actually shop, cos we were really on budget and time constraints. but anyway i managed to get the parousia album from HMV(!!), and its really good. so the songs are generally christian, but the words are meaningful like hell. haha. sooo nice...
anyway, we bitched alot today. esp me (duh!). and it was really fun, sitting in KFC listening to henry's super leg-less jokes and me bitchin like free. and cherelle givin her "you suck" look... dorts. oh and subra being at the end of much of our jokes... lol. but subs is great lah. so sporting somemore, let us make fun of him (in a nice way of course). and there was the 2/3 guys behind us, super scandalous lah. although i don tink they're twins (henry does), their hair super seh lah..
oh oh and we went to take neos. so damn funny cos the 3 of them don wan 2 take. but after much persuasion, and the fact that pea paid, we went to take. and it was super funny lah. esp the editing part. wtf.
now our plan is to go out like this every last friday of the month, i tink. haha.
i think i'm becoming too nice to the people i don dislike. eh. and i don noe lah. maybe its a good thing, maybe its a bad thing. but what the heck. at least i'm changing. i think.
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i underestimate your love
correct this misconception
align my misdirection
i bask in your affection
you're so much more
nb. i've edited out christian content)
- plain wonder
today me, henry, subra, cheryl and pearlyn went out for dinner/shopping. we didn't actually shop, cos we were really on budget and time constraints. but anyway i managed to get the parousia album from HMV(!!), and its really good. so the songs are generally christian, but the words are meaningful like hell. haha. sooo nice...
anyway, we bitched alot today. esp me (duh!). and it was really fun, sitting in KFC listening to henry's super leg-less jokes and me bitchin like free. and cherelle givin her "you suck" look... dorts. oh and subra being at the end of much of our jokes... lol. but subs is great lah. so sporting somemore, let us make fun of him (in a nice way of course). and there was the 2/3 guys behind us, super scandalous lah. although i don tink they're twins (henry does), their hair super seh lah..
oh oh and we went to take neos. so damn funny cos the 3 of them don wan 2 take. but after much persuasion, and the fact that pea paid, we went to take. and it was super funny lah. esp the editing part. wtf.
now our plan is to go out like this every last friday of the month, i tink. haha.
i think i'm becoming too nice to the people i don dislike. eh. and i don noe lah. maybe its a good thing, maybe its a bad thing. but what the heck. at least i'm changing. i think.
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i underestimate your love
correct this misconception
align my misdirection
i bask in your affection
you're so much more
nb. i've edited out christian content)
- plain wonder
Friday, May 27, 2005
you:
crap.
its getting too irritating to stand.
and i don't think i can put up with it any longer.
to you,
ego problems are crazily evident.
and we can sense it, i can.
theres no running away,
no point keep hiding under that innocent mask.
won't you jus grow up?
show some maturity that ure suppose to possess?
no one's goin to listen to you jus cos you wan them to...
do you honestly think you're likable?
maybe you are, i don't know.
but forget it, you're lost to me.
i can't help it really.
everytime i see that fucked up face of ures,
giving no care to people around you,
assuming the world owes you a goddam living,
i somehow jus wanna give you a tight slap.
self-confidence is a good thing,
it keeps you moving.
but times when it just is too much,
it's impossible to take it.
too highly do you think about ureself,
too sure of ure abilities,
too sure that the world's in love with you.
time to time its ok.
i can still swallow down the rage within.
but now its gettin way out of hand,
but theres no point trying to be what you can't.
i still wonder to those who put up with it.
kudos.
to you, whom we must all now hate.
i don noe. why must it be this way?
you try to make ureself likable,
but sadly it aint working.
the jokes, jus not funny,
(or maybe we laugh at the lameness of it all...)
but how i could wish it could change,
jus like the way you always say it should.
ironic words, they shall be.
are you serious?
for if you are i'll be amazed.
the things you do,
you say, i can just wonder.
to you, whom its been so long.
please don't let go.
hold on.
its getting too irritating to stand.
and i don't think i can put up with it any longer.
to you,
ego problems are crazily evident.
and we can sense it, i can.
theres no running away,
no point keep hiding under that innocent mask.
won't you jus grow up?
show some maturity that ure suppose to possess?
no one's goin to listen to you jus cos you wan them to...
do you honestly think you're likable?
maybe you are, i don't know.
but forget it, you're lost to me.
i can't help it really.
everytime i see that fucked up face of ures,
giving no care to people around you,
assuming the world owes you a goddam living,
i somehow jus wanna give you a tight slap.
self-confidence is a good thing,
it keeps you moving.
but times when it just is too much,
it's impossible to take it.
too highly do you think about ureself,
too sure of ure abilities,
too sure that the world's in love with you.
time to time its ok.
i can still swallow down the rage within.
but now its gettin way out of hand,
but theres no point trying to be what you can't.
i still wonder to those who put up with it.
kudos.
to you, whom we must all now hate.
i don noe. why must it be this way?
you try to make ureself likable,
but sadly it aint working.
the jokes, jus not funny,
(or maybe we laugh at the lameness of it all...)
but how i could wish it could change,
jus like the way you always say it should.
ironic words, they shall be.
are you serious?
for if you are i'll be amazed.
the things you do,
you say, i can just wonder.
to you, whom its been so long.
please don't let go.
hold on.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
more than words [.heartfelt.]
thursday 26th may 2005.
liverpool 1-1 ac milan (liverpool win 3-2 on penalties)
after trailing 0-3 at half time.
carrie underwood - new american idol.
country chick to american idol.
i'm lost for words. i really am.
cos it's truly amazing.
isn't this what we all live for.
those special moments.
of true greatness.
wonderful.
liverpool 1-1 ac milan (liverpool win 3-2 on penalties)
after trailing 0-3 at half time.
carrie underwood - new american idol.
country chick to american idol.
i'm lost for words. i really am.
cos it's truly amazing.
isn't this what we all live for.
those special moments.
of true greatness.
wonderful.
heartattacks...
damn.
vj lost to mj.
yeah.
liverpool are the kings of europe.
sigh. penalty shoot-outs are gonna be the death of me.
on sunday the match between man u and arsenal was decided on penalties, in which scholesy had his penalty saved. full credit to lehman, for he won the game for arsenal. and when i say arsena, didn't deserve to win, i'm not saying it with any bias. yes, i'm a mu fan, but watchin the match it was pretty obvious who were the better team. and they lost. everytime rooney or ronaldo had the ball, you jus knew there was goin to be a half chance. but sadly no one could convert. lauren was literally dying out there, being ran at by to of the most talented youngsters in the english game, one whom you're scared of tackling, and one which you jus cant get close enough tackle.
man u created dozens and dozens of chances. and arsenal had close to none. yet kudos to them for holding on. sigh. how i hatre penalties. and of all things a one-sided game had to be decided by penalties. and sadly to say, carroll cant save a penaty to save his life. how i miss the days of barthez. teasing the opponent, almost mocking him. his rituals of going to kick both posts, taking his own damn sweet time (why not if you have all the time in the world?), den emphatically save the penalty.
magic.
that was sunday.
feels so long ago.
wednesday was B and A div soccer finals. B div was settled by penalties, after the losing side got back on level terms via a penalty (too!). ironically this was what happened in the A game too. after 70 odd minutes, VJ let in a goal. who's fault it is i dont think its fair to say, but it was a great pass, a greater finish. but what the heck we got back thru what was to me a rather dubious penalty (but wtf. it was for us.). anyway alvin put it away nicely, and we were back in it.
extra time wore on, and we had two to three good chances which we failed to converted, maybe because of tired legs, or the pressure or somthing. and we had a few injuries. imran did his ankle, and still endured on till it was too much to bear. salmon was starting to cramp, considering the fact that he had worked tirelessly throughout the whole match. however i felt we didn't play to our very best, and did not rise up to the occasion. yes we've beaten them before, but who said you'll do it again. i'm not being hypocritical or anything, but i really felt we could have done alot better. the service wasn't really there, sadly. sigh. jus what does it take?
and this morning. honestly one of the best matches i've seen in a long time. sadly i woke up at 2.15, but fell back asleep and only got up agian like at the 77th min. but no harm done. from the commentary i got that ac milan had totally dominated in the first half, and the way they ripped apart liverpool, no one saw a way back (looks pointedly at henry.) and what a second half. what a turnaround.
come on. 3 nil dwon to an italian team? hello theres jus aint a way back. these are the italians. the masters of the defence. but found and answer Liverpool did. and my god what an answer. jus like they found an answer to juve and chelski, the found it against the mighty catalian giants. within the space of 15 incredible minutes, liverpool were back in it, back in the most amzing way.
again it went on to penalties, and jerzy dudek was made an instant hero. enough said. gerrard had better stay.
liverpool: kings of europe. thoroughly deserved.
vj lost to mj.
yeah.
liverpool are the kings of europe.
sigh. penalty shoot-outs are gonna be the death of me.
on sunday the match between man u and arsenal was decided on penalties, in which scholesy had his penalty saved. full credit to lehman, for he won the game for arsenal. and when i say arsena, didn't deserve to win, i'm not saying it with any bias. yes, i'm a mu fan, but watchin the match it was pretty obvious who were the better team. and they lost. everytime rooney or ronaldo had the ball, you jus knew there was goin to be a half chance. but sadly no one could convert. lauren was literally dying out there, being ran at by to of the most talented youngsters in the english game, one whom you're scared of tackling, and one which you jus cant get close enough tackle.
man u created dozens and dozens of chances. and arsenal had close to none. yet kudos to them for holding on. sigh. how i hatre penalties. and of all things a one-sided game had to be decided by penalties. and sadly to say, carroll cant save a penaty to save his life. how i miss the days of barthez. teasing the opponent, almost mocking him. his rituals of going to kick both posts, taking his own damn sweet time (why not if you have all the time in the world?), den emphatically save the penalty.
magic.
that was sunday.
feels so long ago.
wednesday was B and A div soccer finals. B div was settled by penalties, after the losing side got back on level terms via a penalty (too!). ironically this was what happened in the A game too. after 70 odd minutes, VJ let in a goal. who's fault it is i dont think its fair to say, but it was a great pass, a greater finish. but what the heck we got back thru what was to me a rather dubious penalty (but wtf. it was for us.). anyway alvin put it away nicely, and we were back in it.
extra time wore on, and we had two to three good chances which we failed to converted, maybe because of tired legs, or the pressure or somthing. and we had a few injuries. imran did his ankle, and still endured on till it was too much to bear. salmon was starting to cramp, considering the fact that he had worked tirelessly throughout the whole match. however i felt we didn't play to our very best, and did not rise up to the occasion. yes we've beaten them before, but who said you'll do it again. i'm not being hypocritical or anything, but i really felt we could have done alot better. the service wasn't really there, sadly. sigh. jus what does it take?
and this morning. honestly one of the best matches i've seen in a long time. sadly i woke up at 2.15, but fell back asleep and only got up agian like at the 77th min. but no harm done. from the commentary i got that ac milan had totally dominated in the first half, and the way they ripped apart liverpool, no one saw a way back (looks pointedly at henry.) and what a second half. what a turnaround.
come on. 3 nil dwon to an italian team? hello theres jus aint a way back. these are the italians. the masters of the defence. but found and answer Liverpool did. and my god what an answer. jus like they found an answer to juve and chelski, the found it against the mighty catalian giants. within the space of 15 incredible minutes, liverpool were back in it, back in the most amzing way.
again it went on to penalties, and jerzy dudek was made an instant hero. enough said. gerrard had better stay.
liverpool: kings of europe. thoroughly deserved.
Monday, May 23, 2005
dreaming in red .:.
growing up, aint it the hardest thing to do.
but try as we might, there aint stopping.
but as one might seem,
sometimes the rare ones,
somehow stuck they always are.
never moving, caught in their own little fantasies about how wonderful the world is.
wake up. for things never is that simple.
as much as we would love it to be,
the world just aint no nice guy,
and sooner or later one has to face up to that,
open your eyes to the realities of this life that you're living.
the fine line between positive outlook and disillusion is always changing,
balck and white never so clear, the grey areas becoming greyer.
sometimes hopin maybe this fog might lift,
let see what we truly should,
uncover the mystified.
but sadly that's just one of those dreams that never come true.
waking each morning, seeing the skies as blue as we want it to be, disillusion.
realising its grey, yet hoping it might be blue sometime, positive outlook.
is hope the one to carry us on?
to those in question,
hoping someday you might jus realise,
this world aint meant to do you no favours.
want it, come get it.
no use demanding, for no one is obliged to give.
all it takes, is jus the little bit of effort,
effort that deep down inside you know you have.
this otherwise known as decency.
honestly, jus take a step back,
clear your mind and look.
hopefully you'd realise things aren't always as you see them.
seldom are they, too often does us deceive our own.
crazy little thing the mind is.
first consider if thats what you want,
all that you dish out on others.
i doubt you're blind,
but it wouldn't hurt to have you're eyesight checked.
no one owes you a living, you do.
quit dreaming already.
but try as we might, there aint stopping.
but as one might seem,
sometimes the rare ones,
somehow stuck they always are.
never moving, caught in their own little fantasies about how wonderful the world is.
wake up. for things never is that simple.
as much as we would love it to be,
the world just aint no nice guy,
and sooner or later one has to face up to that,
open your eyes to the realities of this life that you're living.
the fine line between positive outlook and disillusion is always changing,
balck and white never so clear, the grey areas becoming greyer.
sometimes hopin maybe this fog might lift,
let see what we truly should,
uncover the mystified.
but sadly that's just one of those dreams that never come true.
waking each morning, seeing the skies as blue as we want it to be, disillusion.
realising its grey, yet hoping it might be blue sometime, positive outlook.
is hope the one to carry us on?
to those in question,
hoping someday you might jus realise,
this world aint meant to do you no favours.
want it, come get it.
no use demanding, for no one is obliged to give.
all it takes, is jus the little bit of effort,
effort that deep down inside you know you have.
this otherwise known as decency.
honestly, jus take a step back,
clear your mind and look.
hopefully you'd realise things aren't always as you see them.
seldom are they, too often does us deceive our own.
crazy little thing the mind is.
first consider if thats what you want,
all that you dish out on others.
i doubt you're blind,
but it wouldn't hurt to have you're eyesight checked.
no one owes you a living, you do.
quit dreaming already.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
intruder alert
dunman GEPers are shallow-minded, naive, insensitive,
overly reactive, dumbass twits.
and this i am saying with reason.
(oh and i want to get things staright too)
(double oh and this aint gonna help me. in fact it mite jus be the end of me...)
first let me get this straight.
i do not like amanda.
period.
double period.
(and any girl at the moment for that matter)
and do not misinterpret this as some defensive move to hide my feelings or anything.
quoting a fren: "i haf notin to hide. and if there was i wouldn't let u know."
maybe this is abit late in reference to a particular incident,
but its high time i brought this up (in light of other incidents too).
i really dont get it. why in the blue (or red or black or wadeva) hell would i lyk her?
one. shes not my type. two. shes not even chio. three. shes so friggin ditzy. four. if i wanted a blockhead i'd chase a block.
ok i tink some people are abit lost here. (not that anyone is readin...)
but wad happened was that on may 8 (i tink), i asked ditzy amanda if she could go down with me to help me pick out a present for a fen of mine. explanation: they haf similar taste, she loves shoppin and has alot of time to spare, she has money i could borrow.
so ok. wadeva. i needed to get the present soon aniwae.
so den later she tell me oh she don feel lyk goin animore, and no reason.
and when i found out the real reason why she now didn't want to go anymore (from reliable sources), i just lost all respect for dunman GEPers. come on. use ure brains for once. or at least try. wtf she already has a bf (whom i don tink she deserves, but i shant say), and i really don get the chen ji part. hello i wan also ask someone of of better character (and looks and brains) den her. doh.
and another thing. she and i arnt exactly on the best of talkin terms, what with her giving me attitude and me just being me. so msg to u all: at least get ure facts straight before getting in my way and pissing me off (and i'm not exactly easily pissed offed).
so aniwae, thats dat.
this is this.
i think certain people should learn to be more sensitive to others, and to be more aware that there are other people in this world, people who do not look up to (fill in the blanks) as god. colourful, yeah. noisy yeah. childish, yeah. stupid, yeah. non-thinking, yeah. insensitive, yeah. irritating, yeah. getting worse, yeah.
also, (fill in the blanks) should learn to leave people alone. what i mean is that sometimes people respect some privacy. and sometimes there are things YOU JUS DONT GET INVOLED IN. ok so i'm guilty of this too, but at least i'm aware. sadly (fill in the blanks) isnt. i mean, certain things should be left alone. no use pouring oil on fire (clue: analogy). or troubling still water. and there are a few degrees of this. bad = thana. the way he keeps provoking henry is jus detremental for his health (not that its in the greatest shape). but dats still relatively ok compared to this.
i won elaborate wait pple say i over-read or wad. but i shall keep watching. its strangely interesting. i shall update. (oh and i now haf some concrete evidence)
have been warned.
overly reactive, dumbass twits.
and this i am saying with reason.
(oh and i want to get things staright too)
(double oh and this aint gonna help me. in fact it mite jus be the end of me...)
first let me get this straight.
i do not like amanda.
period.
double period.
(and any girl at the moment for that matter)
and do not misinterpret this as some defensive move to hide my feelings or anything.
quoting a fren: "i haf notin to hide. and if there was i wouldn't let u know."
maybe this is abit late in reference to a particular incident,
but its high time i brought this up (in light of other incidents too).
i really dont get it. why in the blue (or red or black or wadeva) hell would i lyk her?
one. shes not my type. two. shes not even chio. three. shes so friggin ditzy. four. if i wanted a blockhead i'd chase a block.
ok i tink some people are abit lost here. (not that anyone is readin...)
but wad happened was that on may 8 (i tink), i asked ditzy amanda if she could go down with me to help me pick out a present for a fen of mine. explanation: they haf similar taste, she loves shoppin and has alot of time to spare, she has money i could borrow.
so ok. wadeva. i needed to get the present soon aniwae.
so den later she tell me oh she don feel lyk goin animore, and no reason.
and when i found out the real reason why she now didn't want to go anymore (from reliable sources), i just lost all respect for dunman GEPers. come on. use ure brains for once. or at least try. wtf she already has a bf (whom i don tink she deserves, but i shant say), and i really don get the chen ji part. hello i wan also ask someone of of better character (and looks and brains) den her. doh.
and another thing. she and i arnt exactly on the best of talkin terms, what with her giving me attitude and me just being me. so msg to u all: at least get ure facts straight before getting in my way and pissing me off (and i'm not exactly easily pissed offed).
so aniwae, thats dat.
this is this.
i think certain people should learn to be more sensitive to others, and to be more aware that there are other people in this world, people who do not look up to (fill in the blanks) as god. colourful, yeah. noisy yeah. childish, yeah. stupid, yeah. non-thinking, yeah. insensitive, yeah. irritating, yeah. getting worse, yeah.
also, (fill in the blanks) should learn to leave people alone. what i mean is that sometimes people respect some privacy. and sometimes there are things YOU JUS DONT GET INVOLED IN. ok so i'm guilty of this too, but at least i'm aware. sadly (fill in the blanks) isnt. i mean, certain things should be left alone. no use pouring oil on fire (clue: analogy). or troubling still water. and there are a few degrees of this. bad = thana. the way he keeps provoking henry is jus detremental for his health (not that its in the greatest shape). but dats still relatively ok compared to this.
i won elaborate wait pple say i over-read or wad. but i shall keep watching. its strangely interesting. i shall update. (oh and i now haf some concrete evidence)
have been warned.
Friday, May 20, 2005
applyin knowledge
sigh. i feel like a molecule being heated lyk mad.
nb. to trs: see i'm applying wad we learn in class (wait. trs won find it here. hopefully)
nnb. if ure wondering why this and the last post is so damn short, it's cos i'm not really in a thinking mood rite now. i mite be in 5 mins... lol
nb. to trs: see i'm applying wad we learn in class (wait. trs won find it here. hopefully)
nnb. if ure wondering why this and the last post is so damn short, it's cos i'm not really in a thinking mood rite now. i mite be in 5 mins... lol
pimple-lation...
sigh. i've got a HUGE far pimple at my eye there. lol. it's insanely huge. yeah. rushin off 4 dinner now... lol. this is crazy. my life is.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
of thinkers and others...
its now 5 months into the year,
and its strange, cos tho it's so different,
it somehow still feels the same.
honestly speaking, i think i preferred the learning environment back in VSGEP.
well at least the people there actually were thinking.
ok. dats not fair, nor is it true.
but there weren't people who totally didn't think (James i'll conveniantly forget).
i dont know. maybe i'm being abit harsh.
but really its scary, cos when ip was started it was for bright people,
supposedly for peolpe who could think creatively,
who could work smart.
but coming here, and after talking to certain people (albeit the more thinkin ones. honestly),
i realised that its still very much similar to mainstream.
i mean, ok about everyone here were formally from mainstream, but come on,
this is IP. we're suppose to be different, to do things in a more advanced way compared to mainstreamers. i'm not saying mainstreamers are dumb or anything,
but what i'm saying is people here should be alot smarter in how they do things.
(her3 i'm speakin for more than one person).
by thinkin i don mean like doing work and stuff. hell everyone thinks (ah duh).
but to actually think about wad they're doin,
to consider they're actions, actually analyse things before asking questions,
things like dat (pardon the lame unintended pun).
i mean, i'm not naming anyone but some people just aren't thinkin,
and it's becoming very obvious and sure as hell irritating.
its really sad that people come here and still believe that they can work the way they did previously.
cos sadly it's not possible. this is one thing GEP has taught me,
and more specifically wad last year had taught me.
you're expected to find the answers, not people provide them for you.
and in doing this you're also suppose to intepret things for ureself.
sadly (again), some people just aint doing this.
yes, there are people who are trying,
maybe u could call it adapting,
and for that i salute them.
but for the others i just hope they start trying,
or at least be aware of the fact that being in the IP is diff from mainstream,
and actually diff from secondary sch altogether.
i don mean to be damn hao lian or anything,
but i tink dat GEPers are better adapted to the IP system than others,
sadly this aint very well reflected (think me and aaron),
but really, wad we've done in GEP is similar to how things are being done now.
and i believe it really helps.
put it this way. everyone keeps saying how "i'll go home an mug!",
and honestly i think this is a really lousy way of lookin at things.
i mean, there's only so much you can mug for.
here in IP they expect you to think about wad ure 'mugging' about.
there's no use jus muggin and muggin, cos it'll only get you this far.
(nb: my "you"s and "they"s are USUALLY ambiguous)
why do people want to mug?
personally i don believe in muggin, cos i tink its useless, but dats me.
seriously, wads the point? are we jus studyin for the sake of studyin?
because people tell us we must study? cos everyone else is doin so?
its slightly ironic, as the above is wad i shld be doin,
but dats besides the point.
jus something to thiink about...
and its strange, cos tho it's so different,
it somehow still feels the same.
honestly speaking, i think i preferred the learning environment back in VSGEP.
well at least the people there actually were thinking.
ok. dats not fair, nor is it true.
but there weren't people who totally didn't think (James i'll conveniantly forget).
i dont know. maybe i'm being abit harsh.
but really its scary, cos when ip was started it was for bright people,
supposedly for peolpe who could think creatively,
who could work smart.
but coming here, and after talking to certain people (albeit the more thinkin ones. honestly),
i realised that its still very much similar to mainstream.
i mean, ok about everyone here were formally from mainstream, but come on,
this is IP. we're suppose to be different, to do things in a more advanced way compared to mainstreamers. i'm not saying mainstreamers are dumb or anything,
but what i'm saying is people here should be alot smarter in how they do things.
(her3 i'm speakin for more than one person).
by thinkin i don mean like doing work and stuff. hell everyone thinks (ah duh).
but to actually think about wad they're doin,
to consider they're actions, actually analyse things before asking questions,
things like dat (pardon the lame unintended pun).
i mean, i'm not naming anyone but some people just aren't thinkin,
and it's becoming very obvious and sure as hell irritating.
its really sad that people come here and still believe that they can work the way they did previously.
cos sadly it's not possible. this is one thing GEP has taught me,
and more specifically wad last year had taught me.
you're expected to find the answers, not people provide them for you.
and in doing this you're also suppose to intepret things for ureself.
sadly (again), some people just aint doing this.
yes, there are people who are trying,
maybe u could call it adapting,
and for that i salute them.
but for the others i just hope they start trying,
or at least be aware of the fact that being in the IP is diff from mainstream,
and actually diff from secondary sch altogether.
i don mean to be damn hao lian or anything,
but i tink dat GEPers are better adapted to the IP system than others,
sadly this aint very well reflected (think me and aaron),
but really, wad we've done in GEP is similar to how things are being done now.
and i believe it really helps.
put it this way. everyone keeps saying how "i'll go home an mug!",
and honestly i think this is a really lousy way of lookin at things.
i mean, there's only so much you can mug for.
here in IP they expect you to think about wad ure 'mugging' about.
there's no use jus muggin and muggin, cos it'll only get you this far.
(nb: my "you"s and "they"s are USUALLY ambiguous)
why do people want to mug?
personally i don believe in muggin, cos i tink its useless, but dats me.
seriously, wads the point? are we jus studyin for the sake of studyin?
because people tell us we must study? cos everyone else is doin so?
its slightly ironic, as the above is wad i shld be doin,
but dats besides the point.
jus something to thiink about...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
still thinking...
ok. ok so why am i starting a blog? a variety of reasons really (duh!)
1. Leon was so nice as to help me create a template, so it seems quite rude to just ask him make smthn and not do anything with it rite? lol. so thnx leon.
2. i wanted a place to showcase (?) some of my work, though they arn't exactly any gd, but yah. wadeva. lol.
3. there's been so much going on in my life recently i thought maybe it was a gd idea to get it out somewhere. i mean, can't tok 2 parents, can't really tok 2 classmates, don exactly wan to tok to trs, so i decided i shall tok to myself. yay.
4. an avenue to jus post some stuff about things i have been thinking about recently. as in serious stuff. and hopefully no ones actually gets to reading these crap, cos its really crap, albeit logical crap... lol. (i DO us "lol" alot. lol)
5. hmmm... i'm bored, and when i'm bored i do weird things. whee!
6. can't really think of anything else. aniwae, yay. so i now haf a blog. (confession: this post was actually jus to see wad the actual blog will look like. lol)
1. Leon was so nice as to help me create a template, so it seems quite rude to just ask him make smthn and not do anything with it rite? lol. so thnx leon.
2. i wanted a place to showcase (?) some of my work, though they arn't exactly any gd, but yah. wadeva. lol.
3. there's been so much going on in my life recently i thought maybe it was a gd idea to get it out somewhere. i mean, can't tok 2 parents, can't really tok 2 classmates, don exactly wan to tok to trs, so i decided i shall tok to myself. yay.
4. an avenue to jus post some stuff about things i have been thinking about recently. as in serious stuff. and hopefully no ones actually gets to reading these crap, cos its really crap, albeit logical crap... lol. (i DO us "lol" alot. lol)
5. hmmm... i'm bored, and when i'm bored i do weird things. whee!
6. can't really think of anything else. aniwae, yay. so i now haf a blog. (confession: this post was actually jus to see wad the actual blog will look like. lol)
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