time goes by too fuckin quickly

argh. i am pissed. seriously, 2day musicfest was screwed. WTF?? how the hell did risque win?? there is no logic to dat... i mean, the other girl group were technically better, and had ORIGINAL moves, not some oh-lets-rip-a-missy-mtv slut moves. and blaze owns all!! seriously they had some sick moves, even if there were some rather common moves. but in all honesty, the first place should have been a fight btw blaze and the dancer group. risque shld die...

bah. beatrice says she wants to join next yr to overthrow queen A. yay pea and wiane dong shdl join her. teh bu also...

on another note, today was fucked up!! yay!!

well since its aprils fool's day, the school, or actually i tink the sc or cosiety or artery or someone decided to be funny... (sc probrably). so first they messed up the ip classrooms, cos we're the only ones with fixed classrooms. dats ok. den the plasma screen was friggin funny. it read smthn like : assembly all - band room. ip1s - koi pond. ip2s - pe dept. teachers - field. student council - go home! like wtf?

first the national anthem, played by the...CO! WTF?? everyone was friggin laughing, includin the sc guys on stage. it was jus sooo weird... den the pledge, where the chi guy on stage recited in tamil. den the school song. by a ROCK BAND??? the hell it was too funny... and kinda lousy actually... haha.

oh and the announcements were funny shit. (ugh note shan wee is on now. cheebye) first there was the world record, where everyone was suppose to go the the treehouses at 10 to cheer the loudest yo vjc, cos there were the guiness pple in sch... wtf. den there was the free circumcision, which was highly disturbing. den the one about horticulture selling broccoli or smthn. and how "the pe dept highly recommends all students to purchase them". haha super funny. den how the soccer boys were disqualified cos "4 players were found to be taking performance enhancing drugs..." wtf.

2day has been a very weird april fool's day. or eve. oh and some of the ip classes changed classrooms for fun. too bad we didnt... sad.

ugh i am pissed.

whats this special way that clouds my mind?

i realise my mind lately has been very clouded by anger. bah. this is bad.

i need to be less pissed. meanin i haf to control my emotions more.

haiz.

thnx. yea we've both got so much to do. and i really hope we can pull through all this... i know u can. can i?

let there be love-uve

hm going thru my playlist i haf classified some of my songs...

songs to put ureself to sleep when ure tired:
- drugs for me - jimmy eat world
- about any oasis song... the longer ones i guess
- one more moemt - ronin (u just put it on replay when ure tired...)
- hear you me - jimmy eat world
- iris - goo goo dolls
- everytime - simpleplan
- on fire - switchfoot
- every breath u take - sting & the police (somehow)
- any acoustic based busted song
- crumbs - disagree
- an jing - jay fuckin chou
- heres to the night - eve 6
- i knew i loved u/truly madly deeply - savage garden

yea these are jus some i can tink of right now... haha. don getme wrong i like many to most of these songs, but i don suggest u play them when ure strugglin to stay awake.

depressive songs (songs u shld not listen to when ure feelin down) :
- pieces - sum 41(a definite nono. u'll jus cry ureself to death or smthn)
- heres to the night - eve 6
- everytime - simpleplan (this one i'm not too sure, but 4 me it is cos the lyrics are rather relevant)
- hurt - johnny cash (for any self-respectin wrestling fan)
- scars - papa roach
- we believe - good charlotte
- look what you've done - jet
- collide - howie day
- anything coldplay ><
- evanescence
- never again - justin timberlake
- 3am - busted
- one more moment - ronin (i suppose)
- work - jimmy eat world
- generally the slower jimmy eat world songs can all get u rather messed up inside
- blind/you and me - lifehouse
- behind blue eyes - limp bizkit (strangely depressin)

jus to name a few. actually alot of songs can make u feel crappy when ure down... its the whole mood i guess. every song seems sad. i dunno.

cant you see, i've loved you all along...

PEARLYN LIM READ THIS

this is in response to pea's post about vs guys. i'm not pissed or anything, neither do i like hate pearlyn or wad, but i'd like to make a point.

firstly, i tink everyone shld read makoto's entry in cosiety about vs guys and vs cheers. because he makes a point. we arnt the only ones doing it, and we, like all others, have a reason for cheering. u cant really blame us vs guys for loving the school and everything dats comes from it. go read his post, try to be as unbiased as possible, and u'll see he has a point. to pea: i tink u shouldnt judge makoto liddat. cos i know him, and i noe he's a really nice guy. and he wrote dat post, as far as i can see, with absolutely no bias. he is a lit person and he knows wad he is tokin about.

secondly, i tink if its possible, everyone hu has a problem with vs guys and how we love the school so much should go and recall the vs co-ed issue. go read the website they set up and the archvies of vs guys. u'll realise that we really love the school. its not dat we think we're superior to others. dats not being fair to vs guys. but we think vs rocks, and we think vs is great. yes we do. but dats primarily because we love the school. we love the culture. we love the people. and as such its not hard to see why we think vs rocks. jus go read post on dat issue. DEN u'll see why we love the school so much.

and yes pearlyn i am particularly annoyed by your post. i think, in all honestly, your're too hopelessly biased against us vs guys. cos really u cant judge the school, you cant judge the culture we vs guys haf jus cos there are the one or two annoying ones. really. theres bound to be people like dat. but if u'd jus look pass all of dat and jus look at the school, you'll realise there is none of that. the vs culture is not one of arrogance. really.

and jus because some dumb bowling junior of yours is a suck up doesnt mean every vs guy is. cos we're not. as far as i know, no decent vs guy would really suck up to anyone.

so, to all, vs guys arnt dat bad. and we only tink its a great sch cos to us, it really is.

i want it that way...

why i have a fucktard for a father remains a mystery to me

fucking hell...
i'm telling you my father is the best.

i wake up first thing he does is to lecture me, telling me how irritated he is with my attitude and all dat shit. his ohmygorduuselesspieceofshit speech... argh.

u noe, which father accuses his son, without basis, of...
- smoking
- having anything to do with sex videos
- basically anything wrong dat appears in the newspapers

oh yay now he's telling me i'm not a star. i haf not proven i'm up there. wad shit sia.

i don understand. wad did i do to deserve an asshole like him for a father? no one day is peaceful when he's around... and dats a bad thing... now i cant even be bothered. everytime he opens his damn mouth i jus zone out. its a skill i'm qutie good at now with so much practice.

bah they are playin the stupid shnupi song. ugh fuck 987 and bad music.

true.

will you be there when my conscience calls,
will you be there when i'm starting to fall.
are you really just one call away.
are you there to stop me when i start to sway.

i need to know.

and listen to me say...

dessy's top 10 songs of the moment

1. one more moment - ronin
2. somewhere out there - our lady peace
3. crazy son - ronin
4. work - jimmy eat world
5. pieces - sum 41
6. let there be love - oasis
7. far away - nickleback
8. blind - lifehouse
9. lights and sounds - yellowcard
10. when the sun goes down - arctic monkeys

i desperately need some cheering up.

of darkness and deep valleys

sigh. theres so much work i gotta do. i haf to hand up all my overdue work by 12 noon 2day. sian. i haf 4 physics stuff, 3 maths assignments and an ss essay to complete. fuck. and i havent even started. shit. i'll be up till 4... bitch.

i look up at the lights,
all hanging over me.
greet the strangers that
walk past me.
yet time has gone past,
memories will fade away.
looking at the pages of my life,
watch as they fade away,
so far away.

took that shot in life,
only to realise,
i was mistaken.
every hour, every minute,
everytime i look at you,
i realise,
you're all i'm living for.

never a good time to say goodbye,
like a distant memory,
of times that keep slipping away.
time will be the one which holds you down.
those words come out,
when those you want have gone away.
give me one more moment,
if i beg would you please.

stars shine, only to laugh at you.
stones turn to mock you.
dawn breaks,
but i cant see the light.
life so tangled up
in all the shit i'm through.

even the best fall down sometime...

fuck the girl i'm looking for

bah after many days of inactivity on the guitar my fingers have become all crappy again. bleh. shall start playing again. yay.

BAH I HATE THE FUCKING CLICK FIVE AND ALL THAT SHIT.

ali baba, ali ali baba...

muhahahaha!!! i am so very happy now!! ah!!!!!!

ok so my performance jus ended a couple of days ago, and overall it was wonderful. i mean absolutely fantastic. haha. the performances went really well, with no major screw ups or anything. and everyone wad so high!!! hahaaha!!

sigh i guess we'll all miss alibaba 06. and rightly so. all the fun times we had, playing a fool, listenin to the oh-so-lame jiantong, watching/listenin to yunkai and junyi fool around... lol. the qiang dao 'deng deng deng' mv. lmao. yihao and jiarui's jokes and all the crap. and the feeling after performing. the feeling of accomplishment. i think dats wad we'll all miss the most.

sigh. i am already missing alibaba so much. but its over. the show will go on.

onward!!!!!!!

tales of a tormented soul, sounds of the dredged past

its so hard to put the past behind you.
cos it always seems to come back to haunt you.
as much as you want to leave it behind,
bury it and leave it to die,
somehow it never does want to stay still.
either people will bring it up,
and you yourself will recall the past.
regret is the biggest culprit.
regret makes us worry.
regret makes us want to look back,
makes us need to look back.

your mistakes,
they will haunt you.
forever.
people change, things change,
i guess people jus don see it.
but i shall abstain from saying anythin,
less i be framed or smthm.
but lets put it all behind,
and start over.

as nobodys.

that, or fond memories.
of the times we had.
the life we enjoyed.
its like the feeling is gone,
it doesnt feel right anymore.
how i wish that we could turnback time,
but sadly we cant.
we haf to live with it.
i haf to live with the mistakes i made.
and i cant say id on regret them.
i do, very very much.
i would give almost anything to haf those times back.
to undo what i've done.

but sadly the show will go on...

i want to change the world,
but all i have isnt enough.
yet i will change the world.
jus wait and watch.

i want you here tonight,
i need you by my side,
for jus one more moment,
for jus one more moment with you...

dont phunk with his heart

diane is in love with dang lah. seriously.

to those hu will say i'm 'jealous': well i'm not. theres notin jealous to be about. don believe me too bad.

i lie and i'm proud of it

the horrors of homework and the bloody lit essay

work has been piling up like crazy this term. and i suspect (yes i really do) datits gonan get a whole lot worse. this doesn nto bode well for me. den again when does work every bode well for anyone?
point is, i believe we all must work out some strategies to dela with this impending doom that will be homework, and all the other projects to boot.

desmond's guide to surviving homework overload

1. DONT DO ANYTHING.
hey this is a very effective method. at least you won be all stressed and all. and u don really haf to work very hard for this. downsides: parents, teachers, ultimtaely your marks. effectiveness: 2/10

2. DO SOME AND DON DO OTHERS
well this isnt dat difficult to do either. u can choose to do the subjects you like, and forget about the rest. u'll be kinda relaxed to :) downsides: parents, teachers and ultimately ure results, but to a lesser extent den in method 1. effectiveness: 4/10

3. DO MOST AND MISS OUT ONE OR TWO
i believe by far the most widely used method. probrably because of the effort:end result ratio. this methid gives u the most pay off for that amount of effort. downside: stress lor. effectiveness: 7/10

bah i'm sleepy. jus finished my cocked up lit essay. screwed is the new me. muhahahaha. shall continue this some other time if i'm bored enough