SOS

um, my template kinda disappeared. like woohoo. ok so i discovered this some time ago, but nvm.
leon?

so aniwae the song now is hear you me by jimmy eat world. damn nice song, but i suggest you don listen to it if ure feeling really down. lets just say it won help.

sigh. i don really believe it, but i shall start work and revision soon, soon bein like a few hours from now. what the hell.

is this how it ends?

is it?
must it?

you know i wish it werent this way.
i dont want it to end.
not ever.

but, i dont know.
am i giving up?
i dont even know.
i tell myself not to,
but things just dont seem that way.
as much as i dont want to admit it,
i guess it is true.
this could just be the end.

i really dont want to,
but if it really is for the best,
if there really is no other alternative,
then i guess i dont really have a choice.

holding each other's hands,
it only takes one to break away.

and well, you've got Him now.
more so then ever it appears.
and it seems this is where our differences lay.
in faith.
at the end of the day,
i guess you're right.
it will be for the best.
for you, maybe for me.

if you're reading this,
and i believe you are,
i'm sorry.
for your sake,
maybe it really is time for us to part ways.
you've got things to do,
a faith to believe in,
and i wont stand in your way.
i promise i wont mess it up.
yes, our lives are so different,
and i think we both need some time apart.
i've got thinking to be done,
re-papers to be faced,
and its probably best i do it alone.
you once said maybe you were too reliant on me.
i'm thinking, was i too reliant on you?
and i dont know.
i guess its also time for me to face this world on my own.
we promised never to say goodbye.
and i hope, maybe one day,
we can talk this over.
again.

i'm sorry.

love,
desmond.

please. i beg you.

i'm sorry. but why? i dont understand.

if this is really it, at least...

at least give me a conclusion.

deadpan

death is over-rated.










































































~to be continued~

please read this

hello everyone. i have a book reccommendation to make. At the present moment, i am currently reading a book titled Skeptics and True Believers: The Exhilarating Connection Between Science and Religion.

This book basically looks at the difference between science and religion, and how the two are related. It looks at people's general perception of science and religion, the progress of these two schools of thought throughout time, and how today's society is influenced by the forces that are science and religion.

I believe that everyone should read this book. This is for a variety of reasons:
1. It is very well written. The writer, Chet Raymo, writes pretty damn well.
2. Chet Raymo uses alot of statistical evidence to support his claims.
3. The book will give you more insights about science and religion, and their roles in today's society. Raymo analyses the various different aspects very thoroughly, to give a complete picture.
4. The book is written as objectively as possible. Raymo tells the reader at the beginning his stand, but also looks at the pther poinht-of-view.
5. The writer was a christian when young, hence he has experience with Christianity.

Nb. I think that especially Christians should read this book. I'm sure we all know my stand on religion and Christianity in particular, but this book gives you an objective take on very pertinent issues. Also, Raymo does not in any way put down or malign Christianity. He does not attack it, instead showing how Christianity is relevant in the past and now, just as science is. He does nto take a particular side fuly, instead putting forward the claim that without either facet, science or belief, the human mind isnt complete.

better than this

haiz.
its the holidays once again,
and i'm reminded once more,
why school was such a wonderful place.
reminded why i enjoyed myself so much.
reminded why i really do miss times in school.

the holidays.
yes its a break,
but is it really?
do we actually get a break?
i dont.
everyday is a bloody torture,
everynight bleeding painful.

someone tell me.
why is it that parents cant shut up?
why is it that parents never see the need to chat with friends?
why is it that using the computer for personal purposes is wrong?
why is it that listening to music is wrong?
how is it that a father can come home irritated, shout at everyone, and expects everyone to do exactly as he demands?
i seek answers,
answers that arent forthcoming.

its times like these,
when i realise just how much home means to me.
or doesnt.
everyday having to listen to the same old crap,
over and over again like a broken record,
its tiresome.
and i realise,
i dont really care about this family.
i really dont.
the value of family is lost to me.
whatever it stands for,
i no longer believe.
i've lost faith.
or rather my faith hsa been broken.

walking out is not an issue.
not now.
many might say i'm jus bein rebellious and shit,
but in all honesty,
i'm more than willing to leave.
if someone, somewhere,
could take me in,
or if i could somehow find a way of supporting myself,
i will leave.

we should plan for our future.
yes i agree.
but different people plan different things.
and i have some of my plans made.
i'm running away.
is it a short term solution?
yes.
is it a feasible solution?
i dunno.
but will i live to regret that decision?
no.

i guess yeah we must plan.
but dont over-plan.
well maybe its just me.
i don like the structure,
the need to fix things.
i'd rather take things as they come,
to live for the moment.
i want to enjoy my time.
to enjoys the times.
planning, it takes away that sweet sensation.
the exhilaration.

sweet emotion.
its not rock and roll.

ouch

ok i'm like having mental block, so cant really blog properly. so i shall jus be bloggin short reandom posts.

ok so like yesterday i went for cai pai, and den cos we damn free notin to do, so we took out cards and played. i learnt dat:
1. betting push-ups sucks. for me that is. i mean, when u play daidi and like haf to do 44, and ure as weak as me, it aint good.
2. playing poker nailbiting. what more with the kind of people we haf. i mean, its the kind of chiong pple who don worry about doin push-ups. like one round we bidded until 55 push-ups. ow. lucky i won dat one ^^
3. bballers are scary. like strong scary.
4. this is ideal for our performance, cos we're gonna be close to bare bodied. if we keep at this everyone's gonna haf a 6 pack by then...
5. it hurts. my arms are closeto dead now. i cant even swing them, nor can i carry anythin much...

zz dats it. i'm in pain. and bloody bored. this is so crappy. shall find somethin to blog about soon.