honestly!

terrible i tell u. terrible!!!

sheep some times i wonder if i noe u at all. its quite sad really, how things have turned out. so many questions, so few answers. so many things to do, so little time given to us. i sometimes think to myself, maybe it aint worth it after all. but den the devil says: "shuttup and get up already.." and i look at him. and i really want to slap him. but u and i both noe i cant.

its always as i dream it. so different. things are always so much more...beautiful in my dreams. so much more...right. how i wish things could turn out like they do as i dream them. but i know it cant. it wont. for its all but a fantasy. reality's a whole different bitch.

nein?

since i aint got inspiration to blog i haf resorted to a meaningless entry with some meaning

yay.

i haf made a list of strange resolutions. well i haven physically made any list in any form, but i've planned on some stuff.

1. be less bitchy. i shall try very hard to do this. the plan is to regulate myself... and jus i dunno tink of other stuff to obsess myself with

2. be less angry/angsty etc. basicaly i'm not gonna let things get to me so easily. like i used to.

sigh. this is very sad. its always liddat when i blog den halfway don feel like bloggin anymore.

this is fucekd lah. i oso dunno wassup with this and that.

pple shld seriously start agreeing with me.

i think, slowly, i'm changing. theres nothing very obvious, but i think its in the little things. i sense i'm becming different. becoming more... i dunno. some one tell me.

i think going crazy, or at least having moments of insanity, it aint dat bad. it provides me with an alternate reality for all of 2 secs.

there are times i'm not even sure what i'm doing. actions dat jsu happen, without me actually contemplating them.

its queer to think dat maybe its all but a cycle. things coming back to itself. jus like how last yr all began. again.

i need to rediscover some parts of the old me. the not-so-blah me. really.

default rocks. everyone go listen to default.

jimmy eat world rocks. you know it.

taking back sunday rocks. ok so i'm slow but better late then never.

lifehouse rocks.

bawling my heart and swallowing all the clouds and blind me

f'in dejavu

its so strange. to think one year later i'd be walking the exact same path i did. ok so one year ago i was running, but that really isnt the point. and its so strange, that this time it was with my family, and one year ago it was with people i hardly knew. the irony really. life jus has to do that eh? take it and throw it in ure face. woohoo.

its so sad, cos while walking towards esplanade, i was talking to the moon. seriously.

haiz. time really has a habit of slipping away.

bahs.

honey its been a long time coming...

stupid pple shld die. honestly. or shld i add stupid pple who don accept the fact that they are stupid, and summore act clever. die irritatin stupid pple. seriously. i don get how anyone can tink so damn highly of him/herself. and i thought i was the limit. in all honesty, bias aside, some pple are jus naturally dumber than others. why cant some pple jus accept the fact that they really arnt dat brilliant and thus not act like it? (believe me i came to this conclusion a long time ago... ) i mean, wads the point of arguing just for the sake of arguing? if u've lost, u've lost. arguing further only makes u appear stupid(der).

i jus don understand how some people just don get it. losers.

dont you see? you're really all that i want... you're only all i ever need...

someone PLEASE donate me a life. i beggeth of you...