Because that isnt the way it is.

going to work on 2 hours of sleep is NOT COOL.

tennis

Tennis today was pretty fun. felt good to finally play after so long. weather was actually pretty good, considering it could have been burning hot or it could have rained.

didnt do much this weekend. nothing new.

new year's eve. hmmm.

forget about the truth, when you dont even know about the lies.

Poor Idealistic Dreamer

poor idealistic dreamer,

stuck in this sandy wall-less hole.

could you ever forgive them?

the world will carry on,

honouring the poor and dividing all our fears.

dont get caught in the landslide, honey,

there's so many places you can go to hide.

i gave up the chase fifty years ago,

realised that i was chasing the ghost of a forgotten thing.

and how they spit on us!

poor idealistic dreamer,

alone in a world of harsh realities and robot lives.

alone, to face the wrath of stupid mankind.

will you not forgive them?

they have sinned,

they have faltered,

all because they know nothing.

they sense no direction, they seek no meaning.

all they want is their passage to heaven.

promise them nothing!

poor idealistic dreamer,

no one will pity you,

no one will remember you.

perhaps walk yourself over the edge,

and all is calm.

the world will always carry on...

without you, you are nothing.

without you, nothing.

the truth is that i'm a real ass, and deserve nothing more than the very very less.

xmas

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Bliss

finally.

and oh man, what a dream...

19 Dec 2009

commission loh!

1...0

fuck it, just one more day.

Home

And just like that, everyone's back! (if only for a little while...)

F.E.A.r

been pondering things that i shouldnt be pondering about.

suddenly, everything's just about money money money. its the sad reality that i have come to face.

you know what, just screw everything. 4 more days. its times like these one really asks for faith and belief.

punk

sigh. i am totally getting sucked into the google and apple vortex.

You Choose

high commitment friendship or low commitment relationship?

Sigur Ros?

oh man oh man.

the twinkling footsteps in the background, drowning out all your fears.

look up to the floodlight, they will hide your falling tears.

quite often i'm afraid to think. i'm afraid of what my mind conceives, because there is no hiding or running away. sometimes its safer, happier, to just not think. life could be simple, if only we wanted it enough.

listen to the wind, sliding across your face.

wooosh... wooosh...

still searching for direction, looking for my constant.

its the little things that scare me. its always the damned little things. how i wish i could draw and draw up a witty comic about how i feel. but i cant draw, and i cant witty.

still drifting around, trying to find somewhere that fits. perhaps i will spend all eternity drifting. i could breathe dreams, i could eat hope and i could drink wishes. i could survive on nothing at all. but i cant. no one can. or rather, no one should.

who wants to live forever?

been pretty stagnant recently. just sitting around doing nothing. forgetting so many things. ignoring the truths that really matter. wishing for wishes. hoping for miracles. its not over you know. i want it all. how could it be so wrong. no is not an answer. life has been frustrating. things will never be the way you want it to be. not figuring out priorities in life. bad habits are abound. honestly i will not cave in.

the amen break.

i could quite possibly be going crazy. she talks in riddles and i talk in mime. time passes slowly when it passes slowly. how would you know. no one bothers with losers. always check your fridge. no i have not forgotten. lies and lies and lies. first time for everything. cream is for milk is for coffee. and round and round in circles he runs.