Childhood Preconceptions

today i had a perception i've held since childhood shattered. you know how everytime you go out to eat with your family, and you always want but can never get to eat from the western food stall? (ok so maybe you dont know, but that's how i grew up). its always more expensive than the other food, so i hardly got to eat western, and everytime i do its like a special occasion or something. so yes basically i've always held the impression that there was something special about the western food stalls at all the coffee shops and food courts and what not, even till this day. well till yesterday, to be exact.

at the tampines mart kopitiam, i had the most awful western food i've eaten in my life:

the pasta was overcooked and hopelessly bland. they appear to have dumped a litre of olive oil on top of it, so all i was tasting was oil and pepper. the fish fillet was more fillet than fish. and they were tiny. and it costs $5! and is a chef recommendation! i really don't want to know what the chef isn't recommending. (the picture looks a lot better than it actually is)

i also had terrible dessert:

that's supposed to be almond pudding with longan. i ate ice with syruppy ice. and some longan.

sigh. i now stand disillusioned with western food stalls at dodgy kopitiams. this childhood belief, right down the drain.

Message in a Bottle

right now, i'm depressed, suffering from an identity crisis, and am probably in denial. shoot me now.

Beauty and the Geek

an interesting thought came to mind. i think every beautiful girl needs a nerdy loser geek admirer. most of them probably don't want one, because its generally quite creepy, but i think every beautiful girl needs one. ok lets qualify "beautiful". by that i mean pretty, popular, etc etc. why? because all girls are insecure, and having these geeks being in love with them gives them something to fall back on. because most guys are jerks. i don't like to stereotype, but its very apparent very often. and guys being jerks, they never know how to deal with a girl's insecurities. staring at another girl, saying something wrong, you know the like. but this geek, he'll never say a thing. and for as long as social conventions and norms remain the way they are, he'll always be in love with her. conceptually, of course. real world applications are a lot more complicated and impossible to try to evaluate in one paragraph. but basically my point is that beautiful girls needs geeks to make them feel important and wanted, no matter how creepy they may be. there's nothing like an insecure girl needing reassurance about her self-worth. i think this is basic premise of so many tv shows, movie plots and other narratives. and its fascinating, at least to me.

i guess my second point is that geeks rock. hahaha what the hell.