making notice

i'm going to type a long long post. by saying that, i think i have predisposed myself to do it. so what, is it wrong? in all honesty, there isnt much to talk about. so what shall i do? i am really hungry you know. i havent eaten much today at all. and there isnt anything to eat at home. all the pineapple tarts are gone. i love pineapple tarts. i love cny snacks. but it makes me fat, so in a way i'm glad they are gone. so how how. maybe i should talk about life. but life sucks. life is boring. you know i thought about it, what keeps friendships together? and what makes friendships just friendships, and nothing more? it must be our flaws, isnt it? the fact that people are so differently, but innately, we are all imperfect. we are all flawed. we all make mistakes. and i think as long as we recognise that, friends will be but friends. today i saw a very sad scenario in the train. there was this couple standing next to me. (not a good looking couple, but that is irrelevant.) the guy was playing his psp, with his headphones plugged in. the girl was standing next to him, leaning on him somewhat, and with her own headphones plugged in. now, isnt that just so very sad? i think it is. i mean, i definitely could be misjudging them, but i just find such a scenario very saddening. den again, i find myself contradicting myself. but maybe not. on the way up the escalator at tanah merah, i saw this angmoh couple totally making out on the down riding escalator. i personally found that slightly off-putting, but well, people say that's love. i doubt it. i think i'm looking at the somewhere in between. affection, but not, i dunno, obsession? but then again, maybe it is obsession that makes it so special. obsession isnt inherently a negative word. it tends to be associated with negative meanings, but it can be good, sometimes. there is a reason they call it a "healthy obsession". oh shit, i should paragraph.

there. a paragraph. i think the knights riff is just SO DAMN AWESOME. seriously. it makes me happy. its like the happy floorball. it makes me happy. i dont think its right, how i keep judging people. i know i cant use the argument that they judge me, hence i judge them. i mean, judgement is inevitable. but it gets excessive, sometimes. and i know it. i dont want to be a horrible person. ok so maybe i am, that's not for me to say, not really anyway. more correctly, i dont want to be an actively horrible person. some people can do it so well. and well, i cant. that sounds like an excuse. i dont want to keep having to make excuses. these are strangely short sentences. ok stop it man. quit dreaming. i shall go get myself something to satisfy my hunger. ok i found nothing. or maybe nothing found me. i think i shall go distract myself again. distraction is good. i dont really think, do i?

now now, just what do you want? i want to rant about muse. i think muse is awesome. i really do. it makes me all bubbly and happy. of course, that's provided i'm not listening to the depressing songs. starlight is incredibly uplifting, even if i dont particularly like the song. there's just something about the song, its so hopeful. and maybe we all need something like that. some blind hope. to just push us on. keep us going even when we feel like there's no more road ahead of us.

oh lookey. distraction.