Yet one more

it hasnt sunk in yet. everyone leaving, you dont quite feel it. not yet.

i wonder what it'd be like if i did leave. for one, there'll prob be hardly anyone around to see me off, so less emotional baggage in a way. two, its a long time away, dont think about it. three it prob will never happen.

sigh. i do feel sad. but i think only over the next few weeks will it really hit me that everyone's kinda gone. the gang just isnt quite the same without all of them. i know we'll be hanging on to all the residual memories, because that's all we'll have. technology may bridge the time and distance gap, but it wont bring us any closer to each other.

there are times i wish a were just a normal boy. but most of the time i'm thankful i'm not.