Sigur Ros?

oh man oh man.

the twinkling footsteps in the background, drowning out all your fears.

look up to the floodlight, they will hide your falling tears.

quite often i'm afraid to think. i'm afraid of what my mind conceives, because there is no hiding or running away. sometimes its safer, happier, to just not think. life could be simple, if only we wanted it enough.

listen to the wind, sliding across your face.

wooosh... wooosh...

still searching for direction, looking for my constant.

its the little things that scare me. its always the damned little things. how i wish i could draw and draw up a witty comic about how i feel. but i cant draw, and i cant witty.

still drifting around, trying to find somewhere that fits. perhaps i will spend all eternity drifting. i could breathe dreams, i could eat hope and i could drink wishes. i could survive on nothing at all. but i cant. no one can. or rather, no one should.

who wants to live forever?

been pretty stagnant recently. just sitting around doing nothing. forgetting so many things. ignoring the truths that really matter. wishing for wishes. hoping for miracles. its not over you know. i want it all. how could it be so wrong. no is not an answer. life has been frustrating. things will never be the way you want it to be. not figuring out priorities in life. bad habits are abound. honestly i will not cave in.

the amen break.

i could quite possibly be going crazy. she talks in riddles and i talk in mime. time passes slowly when it passes slowly. how would you know. no one bothers with losers. always check your fridge. no i have not forgotten. lies and lies and lies. first time for everything. cream is for milk is for coffee. and round and round in circles he runs.

:D

That, and origin of symmetry. Give me a Hell Yeah!

managed to move!

YES YES YES YES YES finally i'm managed to move this damn blog over to this google account. awesome. i believe everything is now ported to this account so i can prob close down my old account :)

Positive Reinforcement

yes, they may be lies, but at least there is the semblance of happiness.

Just Yesterday

sigh. its difficult. no, its freaking damn impossible. i dunno how to deal. i'm not sure i'm ready to deal.

some things never change. and yet some things change and will never be the same. shit happens when the line between the two start to blur. and i hate it. i hate the lack of control.

its been a good week. its been very chill, going home every day. life out there really is quite different from life in a training school. i'm looking forward to it. its not going to be easy, of course. nothing in life is ever easy.

there is a sense of incompleteness that consumes the mind. 
perpetual helplessness, trapped and confined. 

FREAKING DAMN AWESOME

wow

oh my lord the resistance tour.

went jamming. first time in a long time. felt real good.

Fame

i'm a pessimistic guy. life sucks.

i think the hardest thing to do is to accept one's flaws. everyone has flaws. major ones, minor ones, they all add up. its easy to hide our flaws, or at least some of them. or perhaps not hide, but to disguise them. its more difficult to be true to oneself and to live by those flaws. everyone wants to be perfect, but no one is. what differentiates us from each other? its not who's better at math or econs, not who runs faster, not who sings better. at the end of the day, it comes down to whose more fucked up. because we are all judgemental people. acheivements are easy to ignore, easy to forget. people, not so easy.

We'll fight to defend our country,
We'll fight to protect our economy. 
We'll fight to safeguard our way of life, 
But who's fighting to keep our dreams alive?

Silent Non-conversation

HuiMin says: (5:47:08 PM)
it is so a bunny

HuiMin says: (5:47:11 PM)
its a peep bunny

bobthemob says: (5:47:13 PM)
it is so not a bunny

bobthemob says: (5:47:20 PM)
which bunny has no limbs? huh?

HuiMin says: (5:47:22 PM)
IT IS SO A BUNNY

HuiMin says: (5:47:25 PM)
THAT BUNNY

bobthemob says: (5:47:32 PM)
has no mouth

bobthemob says: (5:47:42 PM)
like hello kitty

HuiMin says: (5:47:49 PM)
i was just going to say that

HuiMin says: (5:47:59 PM)
my mouse has a mouth

bobthemob says: (5:48:03 PM)
yoshi doesnt :(

bobthemob says: (5:48:14 PM)
his nose is too big -.-

HuiMin says: (5:48:15 PM)
yes he does

HuiMin says: (5:48:17 PM)
he has a jaw

bobthemob says: (5:48:20 PM)
or rather, -O-

HuiMin says: (5:48:25 PM)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHA

HuiMin says: (5:48:49 PM)
-O-


Huimin shows off her LSE "penguin".

bobthemob says: (5:49:37 PM)
it looks retarded

HuiMin says: (5:49:41 PM)
its a penguin

HuiMin says: (5:49:43 PM)
you look retarded

bobthemob says: (5:49:51 PM)
cool and retarded

HuiMin says: (5:49:59 PM)
but still retarded

bobthemob says: (5:50:00 PM)
at least i'm in colour

bobthemob says: (5:50:04 PM)
not monochrome -.-

bobthemob says: (5:50:06 PM)
-O-

HuiMin says: (5:50:49 PM)
HIS BEAK IS FREAKING YELLOW

bobthemob says: (5:50:54 PM)
its a lie

HuiMin says: (5:51:09 PM)
what EVER

HuiMin says: (5:51:15 PM)
youre just like

HuiMin says: (5:51:18 PM)
all brown

bobthemob says: (5:51:24 PM)
the endless red tape will keep the truth confined.

bobthemob says: (5:51:26 PM)
-O-

HuiMin says: (5:51:31 PM)
whatever fat cat

all this, in an msn conversation, together with skype on.

this is why i have the awesomest friends ever.

Fat

i just went for a swim, then came up and finished a 2 yolk mooncake. whoopee, back to square zero.

FX

i spent the last 10 min sitting on the floor in front of mt gt-8, doing nothing but turning every single knob i can turn, with the feedbacker turned on. what madness.

my ears are still ringing, my head just only stopped spinning.

Money Money Money

lately have been having slightly messed up thoughts. too many things happening, too little time to fathom an explanation.

its starting to feel a little bit quiet, a little bit lonely.

money money money, always not enough money. 
what can i buy, with limited money money money.
Strange word, m-o-n-e-y. 
its easy to borrow, its easy to find,
but oh money money money why wont you just be mine.

59.99

Bliss. 

30% of my puny ipod is muse. wow.

Yet one more

it hasnt sunk in yet. everyone leaving, you dont quite feel it. not yet.

i wonder what it'd be like if i did leave. for one, there'll prob be hardly anyone around to see me off, so less emotional baggage in a way. two, its a long time away, dont think about it. three it prob will never happen.

sigh. i do feel sad. but i think only over the next few weeks will it really hit me that everyone's kinda gone. the gang just isnt quite the same without all of them. i know we'll be hanging on to all the residual memories, because that's all we'll have. technology may bridge the time and distance gap, but it wont bring us any closer to each other.

there are times i wish a were just a normal boy. but most of the time i'm thankful i'm not.

Soon, another

been very busy. been more busy that i would have liked to be.

i wish time would slow down, allow me more time to say my goodbyes.

BUZZING

OH MY GOD I CANT WAIT FOR THE RESISTANCE OMG OMG OMG. THE VIDS OF THE TEIGNMOUTH CONCERT ARE AMAZING. UNNATURAL SELECTION FTW OMG.

OMG OMG OMG.

*FANBOY MADNESS*

Right Now

its been quite an uplifting week, in the sense that there was nothing downtroddening about the week. outfield sucked, but outfield always sucks.

bickered the night away with xtine, was great fun.

been wondering a lot lately, but not really thinking very much. thinking is tiring. but the resolution of recent times is managing the psp-guitar ratio. more guitar, less psp.

oh my god. august just disappeared, money-wise. what the fuck happened??? i am quite pissed with myself. ok no. damn freaking pissed. going to go on serious diet for sept.

ah its the caffeine in me talking. i've got so much caffeine in my system i'm buzzing. really really buzzing. its all coming out too quickly and incoherently.