honestly!

terrible i tell u. terrible!!!

sheep some times i wonder if i noe u at all. its quite sad really, how things have turned out. so many questions, so few answers. so many things to do, so little time given to us. i sometimes think to myself, maybe it aint worth it after all. but den the devil says: "shuttup and get up already.." and i look at him. and i really want to slap him. but u and i both noe i cant.

its always as i dream it. so different. things are always so much more...beautiful in my dreams. so much more...right. how i wish things could turn out like they do as i dream them. but i know it cant. it wont. for its all but a fantasy. reality's a whole different bitch.

nein?