in need of some pursuit

ah fuck my sis is watching bring it on. (again, i think)

i've realised, i have a few means of running away. one is music. second one is intellectual pursuits. today whilst i was reading, i suddenly realised, "hey, this aint right." i realised that all i was doing was to just push all the thoughts out of my mind, to bury myself in the thoughts of others, so that i dont have to deal with my own.

i cant believe i've resorted to doing quizes to kill my hopelessly wasted time.