not in the mood

today was pretty bad.

its really quite strange how quickly the promos are passing. i mean, compared to ip, its just so much less, its quite amazing really. i mean, in ip i had to effectively study 6 subjects, now i more or less need to study 2.5. thats a hell lot of difference. and i dont know why, but i'm not stressed at all. its a bad attitude to adopt, this whole dont give a damn attitude. sometimes i think i really need to give a damn. (it is perhaps quite ironic that the things i do give a damn about, aiya)

it seems to me, that my life will always be about all the ifs and maybes.
theres too many choices, too few decisions.
always.