that was yesterday, this was tomorrow

and so it begins, all over again, almost like yesterday couldnt be very much the same.

there is a difference. i mean, i dont know if anyone will notice, but i definitely do. and its because of this difference that makes it so hard. its bad enough hacing to start from nowhere. but having to restart from somewhere is even worse.

why is it that a simple man like me cannot even do the simplest of things?

its weird having all these thoughts. sometimes, i wonder if its all just wrong.

using masking tape to patch up these holes, it wont hold. sooner or later, somethings gotta give. lets hope it wont fall too much either way.

this whole escapism thing, its coming back to me. in all honesty, i realise its probably a whole lot easier than people make it out to be.

at some point or another, everyones going to have to entertain these thoughts. i think its just human. i wonder where all our lost thoughts and memories go. is there some kind of thought/memory catching machine that stores all the thoughts and memories that we dont retain? it would be thoroughly fascinating to be able to access such a machine. i'd imagine it would have some form of ranking system. i mean, some thoughts MUST better than others, right?