looking in my eyes

well things arnt all that well.
or at all in fact.
and i'm to blame for much of it.
times like this its always best,
that somehwo i could keep my mouth shut.
but i havent been doing it.
and it has led to all these shit.
the problems, animosity,
things we shoudnt be dealing with.
but deal we must, i must.
to get it finally clear,
just like we all want and should.
i don wan it to drag on.
thigns have to go on,
lives haf to be lived
i could promise to do all i can,
but what with no response?
no way it could be,
so close yet so far away.

i try. i really do.
but it aint enough.
and now i know,
that i haf to try harder.
for it could only get better.

i wish you too...

i'm doing everything i should've.
and now i'm making a change,
i'm living today.