Emotional Crash and Burn

right now, i cant do anything right. all my choices suddenly seem so different, and they start making less and less sense. and its just a bad time to be doing anything. nothing beats nothing. i dont want to end up doing something i will regret. hell right now i'm not even thinking straight. i'm thinking things that make zero sense, i'm considering scenarios so far-fetched even jk rowling couldnt think of them. the worst part is that i can somehow make them seem quite real. which is a scary thought. 

i'm glad everyone's going away. or rather, i'm glad i'm going away from everyone. at least it gives me time on my own, to recover and find myself again. everything's happening to quickly i suspect, trying to do so much with so little time. i guess its time to now think about taking things slow. i mean, its only 4 more free days left. after that, i've got all the time in the world to begin from circle one. 

i guess right now i just need to let myself crash and burn. seriously. there's little else i can do, and there's little else i should do. crash and burn, crash and burn.