wrong direction

why is it we runaway?
are we just too afraid to face the truth?
or is the truth not there for us to face?

have i ever runaway?
yes, and how.

they say running away is for the weak,
those too afraid to face it,
live a life of excuses.
but could we take it?
could we face the truth?
cos ever is the truth too hard to take.
too much to handle.
hence we run. we hide.
in the darkness of our mind,
we escape.

how ironic it is,
when we keep tellin others, ourselves,
to stop running.
to look back,
face everything we're too fearful to.
all these said, yet we cant even trust ourselves to do so.
hypocritical? not just.

yet all this time we run,
where are we running to?
do we run to a place of calm?
a place where there are no worries?
this place dont exist.
it never will.
the place we search, we sometimes find,
its nothing but a mere illusion,
created by our mind to providew us an excuse to run .
cos all this time we're running,
we aint running anywhere,
but further. further from ourselves.
further from our hearts.
cos in our hearts lie the truth.
the truth we cant face.
the truth we wont face.
and so we run.

but what if the truth aint there?
that no matter how you search,
it'll never come,
and no matter how deep you dig,
nothing ever turns up.
for this only one thing there is to do.
dig deeper.
cos the truth is always there.
question is how deep is it buried.
we all live lifes of deception.
lives that are quite simply a lie.
and for this we bury the truth.
bury it under all the illusions,
the farces, the facades,
that we call character.
for its all bullshit.
and through time this grime builds up,
layers upon layers,
hiding the truth beneath.
and so much we do,
all to cover up for what we cant.
hiding beneath the layers of our minds.

the truth is there to be found.
thing is, how badly do you want it?

and i'm still running,
trying to escape, though i know i cant.
btu why do i run?
cos i know that if i stay,
i'd be crushed.
crushed by the guilt,
the regret, the dissapointment,
cos thats what my truths bring to me.
pain.