careless whisper

i love stupid comedies. yes you.

whos the one in the alternate reality i wonder?
jus who is in denial?
honestly, do u tink i actually believe in the niceness bullshit?
i noe its crap.
no i've learnt its crap.
its a bloody illusion.
so to hell with whatever she said.
odds are she said so cos she wanted to make you happy.
stroke that little ego of yours.
and noe wad?
i aint desperate for the whole world to like me,
cos i'm not as disillusioned as u.
it won happen.
it jus cant.
do i make the world hate me,
or are u trying to?
i wonder.

its so strange isnt it?
how you ask for me not to do,
yet you do it all the time.
the pinpointing of flaws.
i happen to know mine,
in case you don believe that.
you dont obviously.
yet haf you even considered the fact that
you aint as perfect as u tink u are?
like whoa some debater noe...
scary!...
and wads it all about you?
oh yeah proving you rite.
rite.
all hail the almighty queen.
ever considered the fact,
all of you actually,
that not everyone is your friend.
not everyone wants to be,
as much as you seek it.
the irony, when you said it was over.
it hardly is now isit?
how long more before you snuggle up to him?
i wonder.

so you tink i'd be scared of you?
i beg to differ...
the locked up self of yours?
interesting, what with the fury and what not,
all locked inside. yeah. right.
am i afraid to lose?
do you tink i actually still care?
cos you're wrong. terribly.
the things dat haf happened,
i've moved on.
its all behind me.
yes i miss the times,
but i don want it back.
i don care about it anymore.
its my history, not me.
i don feel any loss at all.
i cant, for there was notin to lose.
so you tink you know so much of the world?
why, i haf to ask.
wad makes you actually tink,
that you know so much more than me?
jus cos u've been rejected god(fuck) noes how many times over,
does it make you more human than me?
you want so desperately to know whats going on in each person,
try so hard to understand,
but you never will.
as much as you claim the kid i am,
naivity is your call.
you want to play this game with me huh.
well i'm all for it.
hell paly by all your little threats,
promises of anger and hatred.
for as much as you want to play with your emotions,
i'll play without mine.
and lets see who comes out on top.

one against three.
poor odds? hardly.
rally all your suporters,
hell you can turn everyone against me,
but be clear of this.
i'm a fighter.
a survivor.
i can and will take you down.
singlehandedly.

violation of privacy.
intrusion of individuality.
straining of trust.