making notice

sigh. valentines day once more. i dont want to be cynical. sometimes, its so depressing. the truth is, there isnt anyone left to talk to anymore...

groups has ended. at least for now. suddenly, things are going to have to go back to normal again. i dunno if i can deal. no more late nights, no more thaipan, no more dancing...

for some people its so easy you know.
all they have to do is be themselves.
and i dont know how they can do it,
just throwing such words around.
often, all i want to do is to lose myself.
find some way to stop those thoughts,
to just let go, all of it.
but its not easy, it never is.
life doesnt give you second chances,
you've got to work for them.
and sometimes, no one cares see.
no one wants to admit to being weak.
no one wants this curse that is defeat.