making notice

2 more posts after this and i hit 800.

so i'm feeling weird. its not really sadness. its a mix of regret, disappointment and frustration. we need new words for such complex emotions.

life is very different, although i'm not sure everyone sees it. sometimes, i am too quick to judge. in my mind, judgement is everything. its not a negative nor positive thing. it is neccessary, and it happens. it establishes a relationship that otherwise would be farcical.

what's worse? having friends and feeling lonely, or not having friends and feeling lonely?