behind closed doors and blue eyes

dont you love the feeling?
the rage, an illusion of power.
i would.
but i've forgotten to hate.
these few years pass,
if theres one thing i've learnt,
its to let go.
no, not of things.
i cant do that.
to let go of feelings.
its not that i dont feel,
and i'll never claim that,
cos its nothing but a lie.
i feel,
but as much as i can,
i dont let my feelings to feel me,
to control me,
let it consume me.

and as such i don hate anymore.
i've gotten over it.
why burst a few capillaries here and there,
when one can just get on and live?
i'm not saying its wrong to hate.
its relative to each individual.
there are some things emotion is inevitable.
feelings will linger,
tempers to flare.
but after all that,
could you move on?

i'm not sure its the best way,
moving on,
don let it affect you.
some people just are affected.
its a result of bonds so close,
once broken, its more than just heartbreak.
they say the higher you climb,
the harder you fall.
so do you take the climb?
dare to traverse great heights?
i must admit.
i'm a coward.
for i dont even know,
if i'm willing to dare.
if its worse then not taking it.
its being unsure,

even after all this,
i've learnt one thing.
dat is not to let my emotions take control of me,
to let it eat me.
and in hate i see this major flaw:
obsession.
those who hate,
they're so obsessed with disliking a person,
they lose sight of the reality.
dat the person was never really there to hate.
which is why i hate no one.
i don particularly like many people,
in fact i pretty much dislike many people,
but i don hate anyone.
seeing as people obsessing over the person they hated,
i jus refuse to walk down dat road.
theres so much more i can do with my time.
"forgive and forget" the espression goes.
half of it is sufficient.
forget.

dont let emotion rule ure mind,
nor ure heart.
sunder thy soul.

manana - tommorow.
where i want to be.
i like watching doccumentaries.