attempt. its but an attempt.

yes. dats all there is to it isnt it?
try, try, and try again.
when u don succeed, try again.
so try i try.
i guess that really has been what its all about.
always trying.
but there lies a paradox of sorts isnt it?
u keep trying,
you never fail, you never succeed.
you jus keep trying.
then, ask ureself,
wad EXACTly are u trying for?
honestly, i'm quite as lost as u are.

yea yea yea so you say it over and over again.
honestly, i tink i'm too nice for my own good.
or rather, somehow i jus cant let it all go even when i want to.
its painful u noe.
much like a fucking vicious cycle,
it all comes back to haunt all of us.
ouch my insides are hurting.

i want, yet i don want.
i know, yet i don know.
its all very confusing.
i haven felt this way since i dunno when lah.
a matter of neither here nor there,
jus someone right in between.
its like, i can never be sure.
its all me, its all me.

gah i'm too confused lah.
happy, but confused.
in a nice sort of way.