um, yea. so i do. so wad?

fuck. i am so screwed... haiz.
i haf loads of work to do.
sip, lit, maths, chem, wad not,
and most importantly, STUDYING.
yet wad do i end up doin?
i play nba live. like -.-
i am so seriously screwed like really.

yep i tink i'm mentally pretty fucked up.
now as i am,
i'm getting tired of school.
i'm tired or work.
i'm tired of playing games.
i'm tired of the air-con.
as of now i am also quite tired of the damn fan.
honestly,
i need something, anything.
for me to hold on to,
for me to get me through.

honestly? i dont haf very much.
and sometimes,
i guess what i haf jus doesnt cut it.
it jus isnt enough.
i love my music,
but if i cant translate even a minute percentage of that into my work,
its pointless.
i mean, i'm now listening to a playlist if ballads.
i don really understand why.
i'm doing things i never did,
yet i dunno if i works.
rather, i dunno if it can work.
maybe, maybe its jus too late.

i find it very ironic and thus saddenning,
that it always seems as if one can never apply the advice one gives others to oneself.
if i could, i wouldnt be the way i am today.
would i?
or maybe i was meant to be this way.
god's little game of reality.

pawn, bishop, knights, even king?
forget it. titles don matter,
cos after all, ure all jus little stupid chess pieces.