sugarcoat

seriously, i'm not sure why i even bother.
its like, its all so surreal.
almost like its happening again.
and again i find myself asking the same old damn question:
is it worth it?

haha thank you.
for a great memory.
for a great day.
for a great chance.

really, is it that hard to imagine?
does it really ask that much out of you?
all i'm asking is a little bit of understanding.
for once a little selflessness on your part.
but i dunno.
maybe it jus aint "like you" to be like that.
pity then.

i'm really sorry.
i don tink u understood me right,
but i apologise nonetheless.
i hope tho that u'd allow me to explain myself.
i'd even go so far as to say i deserve it.

hey mate. chill.
it aint all that bad.
hell ure life's a whole lot better den me,
believe it or not.
so don stress man.

it was fun.
it really was.
haha.
and we have some memories to keep too! :)

is it, is it not?
somehow i feel theres still this strange barrier.
its you, its me, its prob both of us.
i guess some things cant jus be forgotten jus like that huh.

yes i am selfish.
as hell.
but at least i'm willing to admit it.
at least i know where my flaws lie.
whether i change or not is another issue.
though some might argue, with reason,
maybe not choosing is worse den not knowing.
ignorance being better den ignoring.

i've come to realise this about myself.
beneath everything else,
i wan the chance to be nice.
to be with people i know i cannot dislike,
people i can see flaws,
but they jus slip away.
its like holding a rock versus holdin water.
some things, they are there, yet they arent.
i guess thats where the beauty really lies init?

haha i tink we still haf quite alot to talk about eh?
unfinishhed business, so called.
tho i guess u could say it will never be done ><

i really don take u shld keep blaming ureself for what has happened.
afterall, many a times its the fault of both parties.
giving without taking, taking without giving,
its both they same.
it doesnt make one more guilty than the other u noe...
i've prob said sorry a million times.
haha and i guess now i know why it took so long.
although i must admit its quite amazing how things have turned out,
considerin all thats happen.
much love yah.

loving the alien