the middle

it just takes some time

its been a long time coming. ironic as it is, its always been this, guarded. its been safe, too safe maybe. i guess once in awhile we just got to take a chance. lay everything on the line, whatever the consequences may be. afterall, thats what living the moment is about isnt it?

shit i am in deep shit. i've got so much to do, so little time. everthing suddenly seems to be closing in, becoming more real. i've got mono to worry about, sch work, missing production, jamming, floorball, so many other things. sometimes i wonder if i can take it. just what am i doing to myself? am i pushing myself just to see where i will break? is that what i really want?

i want to break free...