how do i ever look at this the same way again?

i guess its the inevitable. its going to happen sooner or later, we just got to be mentally and emotionally prepared for it i guess. i mean, i dunno maybe its just me or something, but like no matter where i am, its always there. and we just gotta deal i guess. we cant keep running away, or lying to ourselves that everything's perfect, or that it wont happen. we'd be living a lie. and i guess, i just dont want that to happen. its takes too much out of me.