looking back on a 2006 i'd much rather not forget

lifes been:

an ocean.
swimming in this ocean.
you have no idea where to go,
no idea where you're headed.
but you keep swimming.
anywhere. everywhere.

a game.
we're all playing games.
i stare, he stare,
we see who's scared first.
i run, he run.
i jump, he jump.
i fall, he fall?

a farce.
i've been living a lie.
lying to everyone,
lying to myself.
it makes me feel comfortable.
its almost like i actually am.

a torture.
i do way too many things i really shouldnt.
all these, its all my own damn fault.
all these things i've done,
i do them over and over again,
until they hurt.
until i can feel the pain.

the words in a song.
i can write on and on,
but in the end,
without any music,
the song aint a song anymore.
and sadly, i'm not up to singing it anymore.
i need some inspiration.

my 2006 was, in truth, not very much.
i realise i spent much of it wasting it.

2006 was full of:
music.
computer games.
guitar.
stoning.
randomness.
emo.
anger.
inept-ness.
incompletes.

i hope 07 really is a better year.
i hope its full of:
music.
guitar.
jamming.
emo.
scandals.
gossips.
lies.
anger.
computer games.

i need a reminder.