i need a little bit of faith

just what do i have to fucking do?
everything i do is wrong.
i'm always the one causing trouble,
the one being unreasonable,
the one making things difficult for everyone,
the one who doesnt know how to follow rules.
i'm always the one doing things for the sake of defiance.
i'm awlays the one who doesnt understand basic rules.
the one who doesnt know that nature defines everything.
i mean thats just fucking bullshit.
and what the hell am i suppose to do?
i try to reason, no. cannot.
things must have a conclusion.
just finish it since i've fucking started.
i mean like fuck you lah.
waste your own fucking money its not my damn fuckign problem.
i've decided i won fucking care anymore.
its just a waste off my goddamn time.
i'm just hoping i've got enough means to vent my frustrations,
until i can finally get away from this screwed up place called home.
i want to run away so badly.
more than anything else in this world,
i want freedom.
from everything i am, everything i mite be.