dont panic

do you tink anyone cares?
do u tink anything u say matters?
no one really listens to anything u say.
no one trust u.
no one is gonna bother to understand u.
no one will bother to decipher wad u mean.

seriously, snap out of it.
everyone's moving on around u.
why must it be u hus stuck in the trenches of ure history?

and i have come to realise this: i cant not care.
laugh. ok now dat ure done laughing, its true.
sadly, its not smthn i like or want.
but regardless, nothing changes the fact that i am affected.

ure a joke.
pple are laughing at you.
everyone's so far away.

i'm sick. like disturbed sick. mentally whacked.
or maybe. i'm obsessed.
no. i'm deprived.
yes dats prob it.

she's drilling holes in my head.
she's making me squirm in my dreams.
she's holding on to my breath.
she's haunts my every waking moment.
is she all that i have?