whats left is right

thats how it always seems to me.
my life somehow is always on the extremes.
both extremes.
i dont have a normal life.
i wont have a normal life.
why? cos i cant make myself live a normal life.
its too...normal.
i'd much rather live it my way,
fuck it all up and in the end still say i live it my way,
den to jus live it the normal way.
its too lame.

and its also very funny.
how i'm living in self-denial,
yet being realistic at the same time.
its conflicting, yet its endearing.

do i like my life?
i cant say i do, i cant say i dont.
theres some parts of my life that are really wonderful.
theres some parts, lets just say they suck.
but dats the whole point aint it?
the balance of good and bad.

how i wish blitzball were a real sport.
its like the coolest sport ever.
and i'd own at it.