i'm in love with the ordinary

i am contented.
i think thats the most accurate way to describe myself right now.
i'm not terribly happy with what i have,
i'm not terribly depressed over what i have,
and hence i am jus contented.

dont u just wish we could all live secret lives?
do things no one else would ever know?
i want to live a secret live.
it'll be liberating, yet at the same time thrilling,
much like spiderman.
dangerous, but funky.
and snogging in the rain upside down is a plus.
i want to live aa secret live.
i want to be able to know that i am safe,
safe form the probing eyes and ears of society,
free from lust love and glory.

its funny, how you strut around,
acting as if you knew what was goin on.
acting like you were so capable,
yet at the same time putting on that facade.
the emo kid, directionless in life,
never succeeding, always jus getting through.
its painful to watch,
and even more painful,
when you know that deep down inside,
there are things you are afraid to say.
afraid to tell others,
afraid what it might say of you.
and because of that,
i detest you.

i've learnt that once of the most impt things in life,
is to learn to live life as it is.
to deal with things thrown at you,
with courage, yet fear.
with determination, yet hesitation.
it is in this paradoxical aprroach,
this ambiguious lie,
that will see us through,
the depths of space and time.