mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooody

i'm so moody.
sigh.
i hate it how i'm so controlled by my moods,
as opposed to being in control of my moods.
or at least maintainin some form of order even with mood swings.
its one of the many things in life i have yet to master.

sometimes, i feel like i'm half of a person.
its like, i'm only being half of hu i really am.
its liek at certain times, in certain contexts,
i am a certain person.
and it all changes.
and i tink dats quite scary.
cos den i'm no one.

do u feel scared?
are u afraid?
will u fucking die for him?
is this the be all and end all?
i think these are questions we should constantly be asking ourselves.

nope my brain isnt working. i'm now mentally stoned, even if i'm physically still holdin up. fuck it. i'm off to sleep.