i'm feeling quite happy right now, post-paper euphoria still hasnt faded. its funny, no matter how bad a paper is, i'm always happy after the paper. i'm just so happy its over. and well it wasnt that bad, because i kinda expected it to be bad anyway. so it wasnt beyond what i expected. which isnt too bad, i guess. yep, i kinda lost myself too, dont worry about it.
one paper left! i cant wait for lit to be over. i really really really am so excited. i mean, A levels have kinda been bleh to me so far. i havent been shocked, but i havent had a paper i could confidently say i would ace. but its ok. i can always sign on and work my way up the public service ladder. quite a high ladder mind you. quite an expensive ladder too.
i always imagine what i would be like if i were a funny person. it must be quite fun eh, to be able to make people laugh. like the dudes on whose line, i so envy them. there's a certain sense of wild abandon that is admirable and unattainable.
and i've concluded, since i am a rational person, i can rationalise away my fears. and i can rationalise away my anger. i'm trying, i really am.
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